it was my own mistake
it was my own wrong-doing
now im too dependent.

while everyone is moving along
im stuck right here,
ALONE

god, shoot me somebody
i just want to be happy
just how i see you to be,
NOW

ironic.
i just wan happiness.
AGAIN

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i tink there sumtng wrng wif my bloogerr..i dunno wad.its lyk i dun have d usual tingy to wry my post.and its irritaingg..i cnt edit the fonts nor cn i add pic or anytingg lyk tht..u know the icons thiggyy..its not here.and im wryting in the text box tht is lyk where u put all the java thinggy..see i just upgraded my blog and i really wished i haden..coz i dunno wad noww..simply say..computer and mee..we dont get anywhere closee.i just use it..but reallii..i dun lyk lyk it tht muchh..i know..im old fashion..so sue meeeee..hahahaa

anyway.i just fnshyed my online lecture.it was dymm boringgg.it reminds me of the times im in LT18 in schl.id be so restless if i hv no one to talk to and end up...well sleeping in the LT..mama dnt kill me if u read tis.blame the lecturer..they are talkingg bull..and im not the only onee..almost everyone who goes to d lect falls asleep.and thoes who dont, have ear piece in their ears..and oni 3 to 4 ppl per class actually pays full attention to the lect.haha.law students.wad u xpct?us to bee all attentive.if tht wad u tink..den tink agn.dere are ppl who totally looked lyk tey shld be ite or out of sch or drop outs in this course.so it comes as a surprise wad this course cn offer.

i dnt know why im typing crapp now when i really shld be studying ...my exmass..kill me somebodyyy..
so noww..im goinngg to studyy..haaa.as if!as if Fi,as if!!..just hope i wontt sleep sudahh..

till den..
wif this irritating blogger..
wen my sis gets homee im gonanaa ask her why..
byee

ps: i loved the bf alot.i guess i still do

you will never be replaced ;
3:38 PM

keep teeling yourself that.
maybee it'd come truee


purrfecctttt..
dont u wishh YOU were PUURRFEECCTT....


weell i do..
i wish i was perfect..i was special..tht i alone can accomdate to everyones needs..requiress..request..i wishh i wass not me.that i cn give wat someone wants.tht i nvr had imperfections in me..tht i was flawless..
BUT..im nottt..


im selfish.rude.egoist.bold.stupid.idiotic.bad.double stupid...not a niceee gurrl

so go on..hateee meeee...haiisssshh..but d thing iss..i wann to be loveedd..howw??

just like my hairrr..my life is twisted.DAMAGED.it takes some time to appriciate it.it takes patience to take care of it.it takes love to see d bueaty of it.my hair is preetyy much me.FAHIMAH..the curly and twisted.

speakingg of which..id reallyy lovveee to cut my hairrr...



life's been a bump..i have just recoverd..not fully tho..i had a major headache and slept ard 9+pm to 10+am..which rarelyy happenss..pluss..i had a majorr throat pain thinggyyy...shuchkkk..even wen i ate ice-creamm just noww..it hurtsss..well just so to say..he's been sickk too..worse thn me..hope u get better.take care of urslf now..anywayy..i just fynsh springg cleannning my roomm,well more lyk my cupboard.threw away oldd clothesss..i swearr..even if i nvr wore them b4 or totally hate em..its heart-achingg to throw them awy..its just lyk throwing ur money..bummerr!

you will never be replaced ;
3:49 PM

i am soo back to blogg..
ive missed bloogingg..soo sorryyy to thoess who paster me to updateee..hahha

just found out tht my darlingg ilahh has a blooggyyy..``chheeeewwwahhh babee!dar pandai darr``..niwayy im missing herrr lykk loads and loads larrr..babeee..meet me soon cnnn..wanna hugg u..kiss uu..muahhaha..smoochh u...

aittee..bck to my lifee...
life has been a bi**ch at some point of timee.i swear im soo tired of ppl who are fake and never true to wad they say or belive in.kinda take me back to my secondary schl..where pppl are reasonably childishh..but now..poly.god grow up.niway not to say tht im not childishh..weell..i am ..but to a certain point that is..wakaka.niwayyy..tiss is lyk supperrr personal stuff..so shant reveal..butt to end it off..i shall sayy..i still love my bf to the maxxx..no matter wad happens.lol ..andd me love the peeps wif meee..u will be loved always!

soo..its been lyk 2 to 3 mths since ive last bloggg..so ive missed blooging about new year..outingss.monthly aniversarry..lifee..and many more..lyk u know..my face appeared in danceflorr for 2 seconds..hahaha..and i cnt blogg due to the wonderful time table of minee..wif loads of projects and assignments.i swear..dnt take law and mangement if u need excitement in ur studiess..d oni intrestingg fact abt tis course is readingg cases..but i dun tink tht is an intrest of many..and of coz criminal laww is superr excitingg.. tht is lyk my most fav subject so far.

asides all tht.my final exmas comingg up.after the chinese new year..and my exams timee table schucckks!i have a total of 5 freakingg paper to sit.last paperr is on 1st marchh and ends at 9 pm..on a more eciting note.. chalet birthday party of my darling bros and daddy is soo cuming up.nxt moday.just b4 exams..plus valentines cuimingg..shat reveal wad i want to do tht day..i oni knoww we are going to the beachh.hahaha.love him..and my holidays are upp sonn..god i need a job..and yahh..d last thinggg..bf burfday cumingg upp.and i dunt tink im doing anytingg fancyy.wkakakakaka..so so u know fadzley..i have nuting planned out for u..hahahaha ..love u lyk crazee b!!

i lovee love d familii..
d frenss..
& d darling sweetness bf..*muacckks*smoochesss for eeiiuuuu

you will never be replaced ;
1:09 PM