tHe stoRy of her's

2011-03-17T00:04:00.000+08:00

I think, i miss you

'fimaaa

2007-12-24T03:07:00.000+08:00

i've moved.

herperfectlyimperfectlife.blogspot.com

:)
loves

2007-05-16T20:56:00.001+08:00

i have currently 123 post..cool huh?
this will be my 124th post.

Friends been bugging.saying that this blog should be closed.and suggested that i have one with the boyfriend.so that at least we dont have to update about the same thing twice.but nevertheless, if u realize, neither of us are actually religiously updating our lives online.reasons you may ask?..well.. we have been very busy.

today is the 16 may 2007.
alot has happened since the last day i blogged.
the boyfreind and me turned 1.
the family.alot happpened tho.
the friends.im starting to feel sumthing.
the school work.tht has been piling up since.
Full update some other time maybee..
when i get my lappyy..

so till then
loves
i love my red heels.and of coz the boyfriend.

2007-04-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

after a verry verry longg tymmm...

tis is ferr myy sweetdeliciousdarlingstar-

happy happy happy 19 burfadayy syggg

his bday falls on the 18 of marchh...

boohooo..hw fast tym fliesss..

syg preetttii muchh got everything he wanted feer his birthdayyy.

1st a surprise party,where all his frens were there..

2nd a new cool psp, sister and uncle gng up to buy himm tht
3rd a cardigen tht he had always wanted, he got himself

4th a familyy dinnerr, under the expenses of his mommyy

and lastlyy, a new "fadz" belt....my most humble bday pressy fer himm

wanna wannaa thkn all tht have helped me make his bday a sucess.and those hu spoiled it too..my familiyyy..lovess.friends.huggss..and apologiess ferrr anyy inconvinence or wad so ever..

swweeet thinggs happen in lyfff..and as soon as u know it tymm filesss..in weeks..in no time at all..i'd be bck in schl..but now as a fully passed yr 2 student&the new vice president of DT.and how feel abt tht? i cnt wait fer my poly yeras to be over.cnt wait fer the educations to be done and juz werk and earn sumting called MONEY$$. and this holidays make me realize tht i cn nvr kno wad enf is.as soon as i got my pay..im sooo tempted to buy.shop.spent.god save me.and when the company business dnt run for dayss.oni god knows. i feel the pain.misery.to walk ard wif absolutely no cash in hand.let me werk agnn..and sure im happy fer the fact tht i am a fully passed yr 2 student.no subjects to retake in the nxt sem.thnk god tht i passed my supp.& being the new v.president if u ask me.anit tht happy wif it.now itself i realized tht ouhh god its ginna take away alot of my timeeee..i really wishh tht i cld have the courage to actually say a strght NO to it.but now its done.i have to accept my responsibilities.pray fer me.bttm linee..all im actaulli really looking forward is to earn $$$...

hopefull i pass all my nxt cuming examss..and this year time will fly lyk how last yr flied.

lastlyyy...

ferr 2 speciall ppl in my lyfff

toooo my speciiaall moommyyyyyyy...

haappp burfadyyyy

i lovee eeiiuuu..

and darlinggg dearessttt...

haappyyy 11mthss beingg with meee..=D

i loveee eeiiiuuu tooo

frmmm urr sweeet loveelyyy fima**

2007-03-15T19:20:00.000+08:00

happy bufday dearestt IZZUL.

so yesterday..as soon as i gt home ..we lit the candles and stuff for izzul bday..nice of d family to wait for me to cut the cake.i swear izzul was shocked+ malu..hehex..

life been the way it is..i failed one paper and taking sup paper soon.ive cut my longg uglyy hairr..but i soo fear now for my bad hair days to cumm....i live life the way it is now adays.i have learnt tht when u expect something..u wld gt dissapointed if things dont go the way you want it to.and i have expected almost everyting for my life and myself.and the disapointments i have faced is way beyond what i thought i cld take.so now life has gotta change, and i have gotta learn alot more stuff.i no more expect things anymore.whatever happens behind me, i wld not bother ..unless it affects me.

goingg out soon..

wheeeee..~`

when i drop..id pick myself upp upp

i love him..not himm

2007-03-07T21:15:00.000+08:00

fairy tales

and

happy endings

i wish

got a job for now..4 days
at suntec.as a goth girl.
wish me luckkk.

y am i not happy?
shld i be???

i was his belo..
till nxt tym

2007-03-06T23:09:00.001+08:00

SWEETNESS!

holidays aree upp..bt not tht mucchh for me as i have d freakingg supp-paper to do..but tht aint gonna stp me frm enjoyingg my holidaysss..wheess...

holidayss been supersupersuper!

went out wiff peeps on friday.

the darling bf..d lovely fie & hid.saba, izzat, kenneth.snji, diana& shen wei.

wtch dream girlss at the new cathy.well im veryy sloww...so tht was lyk d ferst tym i wtch a movie there.i really enjoyed myslf tht day.crazee ppl wif u will mean nuting but a really nice day plus a lot of annoyance -try being me one day and get bullied by this horrible ppl.hehz.but.got close to these ppl now.and as said by hid during the movie, "i love the famili tht we have now"..guess it really comes as a surprise who ur true frens are.one tht wld stick by u all the tym and one which will come and go..i love each and everyone of eeiiuu..until we crumble to pieces.i loveeeeee u guysss...

btw..plzz..if u are so not intrested in musicals..dun waste ur money or time wtchng dreamgirls..aitee..

yesterday, 5 march 2007. was supersweetnessatsentosawifthemostdarlingboyfriend.

went to the beach.swim.walked ard.cam whoring.just me and him.

no big words to describe how i felt tht day.jus a 5- alphabate wrd to say how i feel

L-O-V-E-D ```

so here are some picss we took...
well picture paints a thousand wrdss..

aftr swim..feelingg up up up..

``ipromisetoloveeiuuntilddayidie

under the eyes of the gr8 merlion``

flying bf??```he is so not on the ground

sweetnesss.i heart him``

dearest fav pic of the dayy``i look horriblee..

so till dennn for now..i love my darlinggg loadzzzzz
i love my lembuuu

2007-02-25T15:38:00.000+08:00

it was my own mistake
it was my own wrong-doing
now im too dependent.

while everyone is moving along
im stuck right here,
ALONE

god, shoot me somebody
i just want to be happy
just how i see you to be,
NOW

ironic.
i just wan happiness.
AGAIN

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i tink there sumtng wrng wif my bloogerr..i dunno wad.its lyk i dun have d usual tingy to wry my post.and its irritaingg..i cnt edit the fonts nor cn i add pic or anytingg lyk tht..u know the icons thiggyy..its not here.and im wryting in the text box tht is lyk where u put all the java thinggy..see i just upgraded my blog and i really wished i haden..coz i dunno wad noww..simply say..computer and mee..we dont get anywhere closee.i just use it..but reallii..i dun lyk lyk it tht muchh..i know..im old fashion..so sue meeeee..hahahaa

anyway.i just fnshyed my online lecture.it was dymm boringgg.it reminds me of the times im in LT18 in schl.id be so restless if i hv no one to talk to and end up...well sleeping in the LT..mama dnt kill me if u read tis.blame the lecturer..they are talkingg bull..and im not the only onee..almost everyone who goes to d lect falls asleep.and thoes who dont, have ear piece in their ears..and oni 3 to 4 ppl per class actually pays full attention to the lect.haha.law students.wad u xpct?us to bee all attentive.if tht wad u tink..den tink agn.dere are ppl who totally looked lyk tey shld be ite or out of sch or drop outs in this course.so it comes as a surprise wad this course cn offer.

i dnt know why im typing crapp now when i really shld be studying ...my exmass..kill me somebodyyy..
so noww..im goinngg to studyy..haaa.as if!as if Fi,as if!!..just hope i wontt sleep sudahh..

till den..
wif this irritating blogger..
wen my sis gets homee im gonanaa ask her why..
byee

ps: i loved the bf alot.i guess i still do

2007-02-24T15:49:00.000+08:00

keep teeling yourself that.
maybee it'd come truee

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purrfecctttt..
dont u wishh YOU were PUURRFEECCTT....

weell i do..
i wish i was perfect..i was special..tht i alone can accomdate to everyones needs..requiress..request..i wishh i wass not me.that i cn give wat someone wants.tht i nvr had imperfections in me..tht i was flawless..
BUT..im nottt..

im selfish.rude.egoist.bold.stupid.idiotic.bad.double stupid...not a niceee gurrl

so go on..hateee meeee...haiisssshh..but d thing iss..i wann to be loveedd..howw??

just like my hairrr..my life is twisted.DAMAGED.it takes some time to appriciate it.it takes patience to take care of it.it takes love to see d bueaty of it.my hair is preetyy much me.FAHIMAH..the curly and twisted.

speakingg of which..id reallyy lovveee to cut my hairrr...

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anyway..d blogging strts here...
its exams period now..and i really shld be studyingg..but wat the hecckk..i nvr do ..hahaha..my frst paper.tort law..reaallii shucked! i swearr i cldnt rmber any cases to prove my stand.but then agn it was an open book test.so sue me.d cases were suppose to be right infront of my eyes.but WTH...4 more papers..and im free to go for 2 mthsss..i needdd workk..need moneyy..wannanaaa buyy HP, PSP, CLOTHES, SHOES..hahahaa..lyk if i got money that is..hahahaa...

life's been a bump..i have just recoverd..not fully tho..i had a major headache and slept ard 9+pm to 10+am..which rarelyy happenss..pluss..i had a majorr throat pain thinggyyy...shuchkkk..even wen i ate ice-creamm just noww..it hurtsss..well just so to say..he's been sickk too..worse thn me..hope u get better.take care of urslf now..anywayy..i just fynsh springg cleannning my roomm,well more lyk my cupboard.threw away oldd clothesss..i swearr..even if i nvr wore them b4 or totally hate em..its heart-achingg to throw them awy..its just lyk throwing ur money..bummerr!

so till nxt tymmm...
from mee and the hairr and the maggiiii...
(3 common tingss..coool ehck!)

fimaaa darlinkkk

2007-02-12T13:09:00.000+08:00

i am soo back to blogg..
ive missed bloogingg..soo sorryyy to thoess who paster me to updateee..hahha

just found out tht my darlingg ilahh has a blooggyyy..``chheeeewwwahhh babee!dar pandai darr``..niwayy im missing herrr lykk loads and loads larrr..babeee..meet me soon cnnn..wanna hugg u..kiss uu..muahhaha..smoochh u...

aittee..bck to my lifee...
life has been a bi**ch at some point of timee.i swear im soo tired of ppl who are fake and never true to wad they say or belive in.kinda take me back to my secondary schl..where pppl are reasonably childishh..but now..poly.god grow up.niway not to say tht im not childishh..weell..i am ..but to a certain point that is..wakaka.niwayyy..tiss is lyk supperrr personal stuff..so shant reveal..butt to end it off..i shall sayy..i still love my bf to the maxxx..no matter wad happens.lol ..andd me love the peeps wif meee..u will be loved always!

soo..its been lyk 2 to 3 mths since ive last bloggg..so ive missed blooging about new year..outingss.monthly aniversarry..lifee..and many more..lyk u know..my face appeared in danceflorr for 2 seconds..hahaha..and i cnt blogg due to the wonderful time table of minee..wif loads of projects and assignments.i swear..dnt take law and mangement if u need excitement in ur studiess..d oni intrestingg fact abt tis course is readingg cases..but i dun tink tht is an intrest of many..and of coz criminal laww is superr excitingg.. tht is lyk my most fav subject so far.

asides all tht.my final exmas comingg up.after the chinese new year..and my exams timee table schucckks!i have a total of 5 freakingg paper to sit.last paperr is on 1st marchh and ends at 9 pm..on a more eciting note.. chalet birthday party of my darling bros and daddy is soo cuming up.nxt moday.just b4 exams..plus valentines cuimingg..shat reveal wad i want to do tht day..i oni knoww we are going to the beachh.hahaha.love him..and my holidays are upp sonn..god i need a job..and yahh..d last thinggg..bf burfday cumingg upp.and i dunt tink im doing anytingg fancyy.wkakakakaka..so so u know fadzley..i have nuting planned out for u..hahahaha ..love u lyk crazee b!!

so thats the end of my life for noww..

from..
``d princess of her own world..wif the wonderful colours of her lyf

i lovee love d familii..
d frenss..
& d darling sweetness bf..*muacckks*smoochesss for eeiiuuuu

2006-12-29T15:46:00.000+08:00

`` my last for 2006``

so hari raye haji is cumingg and so is the new year..and this year i'd keep some of my new year resolutions to myslf.the big and more important ones of coz..and for the rest of the resolutions..well..here is some which i cn tink of noww..

i have to slim down by the end of 2007
i need to save more money so i cn spent it on thr things otr thn food
really start studyingg
give more to the ppl i LOVE.friends.family.him

anyway..in a few hours..id be off and thenn its bye singapore and hello malaysia..going back kampong for a few days..not a week tho, but just 3 to 4 days for hari raye haji..and i wont be celebrating new year i guess.and that part really sumhow affects me..``soobso0bs!``mainly coz i wont be wiff himmm on tht day..cnt blame me for being sad coz i cnt even msg him or call him for the few days im gonee..coz my "wonderful" fon has no auto roaminggg...shruugsss...
but anywayy..i guess i have spent enf tym wif him before the cuming new year..i guess it's to make it up to ech othr.he's been cuming ovr for the past 2 days to be wif me coz mommy wont let me go out.so my biggest thanks to dear for willingly wanting to spend time with me when u could have gone out and have funn..but u choose to be wif mee..and thx for the really sweet songg for me!

id miss alot of thngss when im gonee...
i am going to miss ...

my poohh..i decided to bring the one dear gave
my unkept bed..theres nuting more comfortable thn tht
my faithful pillows..3 of them tht is a muz have for bed time
my messy room..theres no place lyk hommee
my toilet..i cnt do othr toiletss
my tv..but there will be tv there
tis stupid computer..no chattingg/blogging/gaming/surfing
project meetingg..peer apprasial howw
DT coregroup..missing out funn and missing some ppl
my frienddsss..plz dun go outing w/o mee
new year fire works..coutndown wif the lambs and cows in melacca

and i'd reallyy miss himm in sporee..

no onee to mgscallinthemiddleofthenightnagathugdisturbscoldplaycontrol
ventmyangeractcrazyinfrontofinsistingonticklingweirdpaartsofthebody
and alot alot morreee..gonnaa miss him loadzzzzz....
ps: B, i did do sumting to ur fonn & dun gatal2 hor!

so till denn..
wiff lovee..

```miss me darlzz..

2006-12-26T16:37:00.000+08:00

`haappy happy mee``

weeekennd was fulfillinggg..

spt it wiff fam and fadz and deee..

in in d words of fadz...."its lyk an all-paid-expense-trip"

and tis is whyyyyy....

we went escapeee...and tht is a second for me and dear for tisss holidaysss...butt tht is not a bigg deal..fadzzz and dee's tix were paid by daddyyy..food was paidd by dadddyy..dey had to spent nutinggggg!wakaka...

mom and dad wis wif ifu and izzul most of the tym..and the rest of us took the bigger ridess...whhooo...enjoy!

soo thiss is somee of the pixx for the dayy!!

so it wass mee andd dearrr...;

sheee and her beloooo..&

himmm...wiff himselff...

andd usss

soo if that wasnt enffff..guess wadd..dinner was proviedd for the 2 gundduuuss...andd later tht niteee...casino royal at home..dvd-movie-marathon,sleepover and early morning breakfastt for themm...denn sumoree can sayy got PELAYAN!tht is me and my sis lar to serve themm!!warrrr!!!think dey bigshott!

but tooo bad big shots dont look lyk thisss.....

soo tht was the enddd.....
lovee 'emm loaddssss

and good nitee ESCAPE...thknx daady and mommyyy!!
love them loadssss
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anddd tiss iss me andd dearr cammwhorringg tripp to orchard road to look at christmas ligghts..

ms & mr santa-wannabee!

just random.. and wiff othr d ppl on the streets..

we want out futuree homee likee tiss... cnnnn

nicee bacckkgrounddd....nicee effctt...picture puurrfectt!
well at least close to it!

enterrrr thee worldd off lightss.charminggg.. dreammyy and a bueatyyy

lovingg himm alwayssss....<3

sooo..till den
PEACE out!

ps: merry 'xmas!

2006-12-22T09:27:00.000+08:00

`so tell me..did u miss me..?``

ive beenn suuper beeezzyyyy andd duupperr layyyzzeeeee to update my blooggyyy!!!...y...coz exammss..projecttss..outinggss anddd i just got my comp fixed anyway!wheeee..lost all my picss but recovered it thnkss to dear! but its still hard coz dadd hv to re install alot of thingss and i cnt upload my pics form the camera yet!

however.. lets see wad was worth bloogingg wen i wasnt arounddd
(in randomm order!)

performed for tp rawkss for secondory schl studentts...kwelness..
JAM & HOP....
test are ovr..left wif projects...and of coz main exmss...now the holidayyss..and soon im in 2.1 denn 2.2..den 3.1...where im in S.I.P denn 3.2!! and im out of tp..ultra kwellness!
burfdays of many peepss...lets see..HINNA, KENNETH, and YUEH WAN!!
7 month annni wif himmm
going vivo withh himmm...sweets..tht was along tymm agoo..but still tht day was superrr sweetness...love him!!
outingg wiff classmates and deariee..go pizza hutt and playedd bowlinggg!!fun fun fun!!`i almost won dear!almost..lost by 5 points
went to orchard road to witness the christmas lights wif deriee and camwhoringgg wif himmm...will upload d picss soonn enf..i hope..but anyway..tht night was ultra-sweet-ness
hangingg wiff the samba peeps..kecoh-ness..i swear tht i'd try my best no to be the pigglet in the game BABI!
go escape theme park wiff samba peeps and darlingg!my ferst evr trip to escape and it was ultra fun !!wheee!
nxt week going to m'sia..leving him behind alone during new yearr...boohooo for us...sorryy sygg!
and i found myslf a new love!wheeee~~my lastest toyy...my MP4..ultra kwellnesss...and coz of diss, gundduu dear calls me MP4-actionist..but i think hes jus simply jealous..wakaka..

so tht's all i cn tink off ryt about noww...so the rest is random pics tht i juzz wanna post..

i love her..& we DONT look alike!and i tink tis pic shows the diff..

so tis is the belo i lovee

look at how much we've grownn!!

from that to tiss

and finalllyy tooo thiss....
(sad but truee)

PS: we have an uglier pic..but im not posting it here!

so signingg off,

fima darling
:i tink i look fake in this pic..but still cute!wkakaka!:

2006-12-06T03:21:00.000+08:00

never say goodbye...

ferst
happi anni to my mommy and daddy!!
today marks their 19 years of marrriagee....woohooo...
loads of love love love there...

nxt
happy 7 mths syg....

haha
tis is random.
will update soon!
love

2006-11-14T16:21:00.000+08:00

friend and friends
kindaa lyk freakkinn out these dayss ..kinddaa feel diff..well..friend are cool wf me and all.and im geeting use to, u kno not being there wif them all the tym readii..

but denn..
they say that the best kind of love is when u find a best friend in ur boyfren.not oni that tho..there's alot more to it lyk he must be ur fren.ur enemy.ur brother.ur lover.evryting.i guess..he is my fren and one of my truest friend ard.alway there by me.showering me wif love and all.despite evry othr thing abt me, that i have falws or tht i am imperfct,he still loves me..i know tht he does still loves me.yea.. he does get irritaed by me sumtimes but he does still love me.sumone there to lend me a ear and sumone i cn confine in.i love him love him love him..one and onlyy.. beloo sehhh

den...

some ugly and sum nice pictures of me and him

and shruugghh..hes fon is at servicingg!!shruuggss..

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg

2006-11-10T03:56:00.000+08:00

updateeee!!!
bz week!!packed wif stuff!!!
a breif update abt my week

FERSTLYYY..
HAPPY BURFDAY TO ME!!!
i love my Bday tis yearrrr!!!

29 october!!open hse!!thnks all my frns tht came..la for the cute presyyy..malek for the lil pooh and acap for the ralli cute japanase pooh..i got alot of poohs tis year!!woohooo!!..and i love my my familiy and my DEAR!!

i got 17 burfday qns tht i cn ask him
i got him by my side d whle day
i got pressy frm him too!!bracelet..poohh..&roche!!love it... and last min cake!!
& i got him to treat me lyk a princess!!
he gave me evryting i wanted for my bday!!
goshh me love him soo muchh!!!!

than the next day..on mandy..in schl..no actualli in itas..i got a surpize bday frm my frensss...the came wif a total surprizee..k..i ferst thought th they might not bother my burfday..haha..the sang the bday song for me infrnt of evyonee and its soo touching!!goshh!!! i love them..well..only one part i hate them when they tricked me into geeting my face sumged by the cake.idiot.i kno i gullible lar!
anyway..i wanna thnk all of u!!a lovely surprize tht i'd forevr rmbr!love u guys
rainbow.hinna.andrew.saba.kenneth.sanji.shen wei.paulin.siqin.and dear too.

then 31 octbr..it was halloween..we decide tht we wnt be ourlfselves..
d guys dressed as ech othr..the gurls..i guess we wanted attention..so we dressed abit more..
Fun day!!i love them all!!

andd ouhh we saw a monster in schh!!

avtaulli its mato under tht mask..isnt he hansome tis way!whakakaka.jk

so..
Then at the end of the week was another birthday!!!this tym paulineee.
Happy burfday babe!!love u.hope u lyk the pressyy!!surprised her too at itas...
and paulinee...Woohhooo..scorpio rockks!!!

nxt was the weekend where i jln raye wif fadz alot!!spent the weekend wif my dear..had loads of fun..laugh2.making stupid faces in d bus..tht im nvr gonna post in the bloggg..and basically enjoying ourslves..fun fun fun!!!i love him..he went to grannys hse and hes now closer to my family..andd i lyk..and ouhh..we played games and he lost,forefit and my sis got the honour of messing up dear hair..wahahhahaha!!!tis weekend going to jln raye agn!!!i love dear lar cnn!!

DEN came antr big day for me!!!!
OUR 6th MONTH Annivasary!!!
I LOVE U SYG!

This month it was BUDGET GIFTS CHALLAGE MONTH!..and i won..wakakaka..but the celebration..we ate swenses ice cream and all!!
i love fadzz..
dear..being wif u for the past 6 mths realli is sumting gr8..i cn nvr get to find anyone eles lyk you.tnks for stnding by my side all this tym.tnks for making my lyf special and making me special.all tht we've been thru will nvr be earased nor replaced.thk u soo much for spending alot of ur tym wif me...i'd stnd by ur side too and we'd ovrcum anytng tht cum our way togther aittee dear...i love love love love love u!! my one and oly cutie lil devil tht stole my heart!!i love u!!!

Then on wed.aftr schl..the 7 of us and fadz went jln raye!!tht was funn..ferst we went hinna hse..den fadz hse..OH YES! I MET HIS MOM!SCRY!!I SCRED LYK HELL!!!EVERYONE WAS QUITE AND IT WAS AWKARD!!but still..i met his mom..at least tht done..hahahaha..well his hse is nice.his room.cozy.i iyk!..k den we went saba hse den lastly my hse..we ate alot alot alot.sanji and rainbw had their own challage..eating challage..and sanji won by half a plate i tink!!had loads of fum tis day!gald tht dear gets along veri well wif evyone!!i love tht day!!!!

im really tired to update now
shall leave u wif a last pic

the ONE I TRULY LOVE ~fadz&fima~

so till den wif lads of love
fima darlinGg
i love FAMILY,FRIENDS & FADZLEY!ALOT!!

2006-10-31T16:02:00.000+08:00

fck bloogr!!
i jus typed a whle lot of tings and its gone!
i hate tis!
spoilt my mood!

gonnaa update soon!

2006-10-27T14:59:00.000+08:00

fertslyyyyy....

HAPPY BURFDAYYY LULU AND KAK AYAN!!!!
to my darling sis..who always have been there for me..i love yuuu...im reallii glad to hv u here in my lyf..despite the arguments and fights..i love her lar cnn..i wish u all the sucess in the wrld and gd luck wif u and dee in the future..i love love u!!!

and to kak ayan..i love my crazee cuzzyy larr..giler and no shame and lovelyy..whooooo!!!
sorry i cnt update ur pic argghh kak yan!!

den its me and themmmm...

for two belossss tdy..me beloved darling sistaerrr and my sweetieee lovelyy cuzzyyy.. me love themmmm..and todayy..is lyk these two belos burfadyyyy..whheeeweeet!!
ystrdy i went to tm wif dear to get a burfdy presyy for sister..got her a necklace..hope u looikkee it...

tdyy myt not be too happy for sis..coz of a mishapp...i send my condolance to the family of dee's..take care deee..

anyway..my raye was loiikkkee niceeeeee...even if i had lyk soo little green pakct..not tht im complaining..just stating a fct..i still lykkkk...fesrst i had a realli hard tym managing my hair but it looked nice at the end lar..hahaha..i tink i qualify as preety cnn??wkakakakaa...i kno i perasan..bt yeahh..wateva cnn...
familyyy potrait...

ermm..yeahh..lastlyy he wanted me to post on hw much i love himm..
so heree...its been 5 mths plus and still countingg..and im still loving him..the oni diff is tt i love him more..he always try to make me happy evn if i cnt see it at tyms wen im angry wif him..but i still kno tht wen he does things,he is always having me at his best intrest.tht is wad sets him aprt frm all the othr guys tht i eva known.i cn count on him to make me happy wen im sad and give me the attention i need.and sometimes i do fail to see all this and thts my mistake.eithr thn tht im glad to have him by my side.to kno tht he'd always be there for me.the one guy tht i really adore.tht nvr fails to cheer me up.i love my sweet lil devil who stole my heart.
i love my only one busook darling of mine. i love love love himm lar cnn

ouhh yyeahhh..dear bought me a earliee bufday pressyy..it a bracelet..tnks B..love u..

i oni wnted simplicity.i gt more tho.and not tht i hate.it just need a little geeting use to!

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
ps ppl:3 more daysssssss!!

2006-10-24T15:57:00.000+08:00

C'MAT 'ARI RAYER!!!!!
whooo..hari raye is here..is now..is today..is lyk wow larr..hahahaha..actually i cnt wait for the vistings..the meeting faces tht u lng missed..seeing smiles everywhere..wearing ur newly bought outfits..*and im soo lucky to have mine by tdy*..hais..and ouhhh..the glam..the new evryting on u..hiashhh...and finally the new poket money tht u'd receive..at least as a child..and now since im grwing older by the day i cnt afford to not miss the chance when i get the money!!coz soon enf i wnt be getting any..and aso the forgiving by evry party..ouhh raye is finally here..wow..and soon..in afew hrs tym i'd be in my new kebaya..going to granny's in granny's..wlking ard..having loads of poket money..not to frgt the tears too..awww...
and what a day it has been for me..the eve of raya tis yr was spnt rathr well wif my beloved.aftr the lng and draggy ferst day of schl i meet up wif dear and we spnt our nite at the streets of geylang walking ard the bazzar..ouhh just the two of us.i wanna thnk him coz he paid for my inai today..u kno the henna on the hand tht ppl oways put eps for weedings thigy..den he insisted tht he wanted to buy me sumting but i was reluctnt but thnkz anyway for offering dear.. to tell u the truth..i just cldnt get enf of him today..honest..wen i saw him,it was just the 2 of us.fun.enjoyed.laughed.loved.den i insited tht he sent me all the way to ct hall mrt which was veri painful for him coz frm payar lebar he has to go to ct hall den bck to payar lebar den to pasir ris..but he did it.and in the train i insist on msgng him even wen we jus met.and wen i got hm,i called him at midinte to wish him hari raye and ask for frgiveness and stuff.finaally i saw him online i directly apprch him agn..aww..he's lyk magnt tdy..i jus dunno y..but nvrtheless..i love love love love love him lar cnn..hahaha..
anyway..mom and dad are discussin nw to go geylang..and ouhhh..i jus retund hm..and im thinking shld i go..wished hari raye to my parents too jus now b4 i called dear..haishh...

now..to evryone...SELAMAT HAI RAYE TO ALL THE MUSLIMS OUT THERE!!!!!esp ..to evyone tht knos me.. i heart u all..sorrryy for all the mistakes tht i ever made or am going to make..some unfrgiving ones but u mus forgive me..hahaha..if i brk a heart or if i made any mistakes..to all..if im wrng or i wrngd u..it wasnt on purpose..lets move on..hahaha..and sooryy coz im not msging any hari raye msges tis yr.hahaa..so all is here..to evryone tht knos me.. fima mohon apun dan maaf atas segale dosa zahir dan batin fima.hope u all hv a gr8 hari raye tis yr..love u all..love family.love frens.love fadz.

and pppl pls..5 more days..!!!

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
cmat ari rayerrr!!

2006-10-22T16:26:00.000+08:00

happy deepavalii to all..
so tdy for the frst tym i celebrate deepavali..did i?i dunnnoo..ermm..we-me,dear,priya,k,leon,dominic,ashwin were all at mato's hse..we played the fire stick thingyy and the guys threw the bomb thingyy tht was veri veri noisyy and i love the adorable lil girl tht was mato's family frens daughtr i tink..she was soo adorable wif her dimple and all.and her english is dymm good for a 5 yr old..aww..i was sooo loving the sight of her angelic face.den we ate the food..which was nice..it was kinndaa nice to try some new food and ouhh love the cheessee thingyy..and den ard 10 plus me, dear and k went bck to payar lebar to meet my sis which supposly i thought i was going hm wif her..bt shant dwell too much on tht..and i caught the last train hm.and nw..soon id be lying dwn on my cozy bed..aftr im done wif blooging and bathing tht is..
anyway..my fon is a gonerr..honestlyy..i hate it..i mean..i dunno..try living w/o a fon for one day and u'd feel lyk u have lost a part of ur lyf lar.and aiyoohh..lyk u've missed out on alot on the outside wrld..evn wen nuting much is actualli going ard..u just feel tht way..i tink tht wen i gat my raye money..which wnt be alot...coz im schlingg..i shall save sum and shall buy me a new fon.i reckon tht when i get a new fon wif my own money i'd feel the pain and id realize hw important it is for me to take care of my new fon.yeahh..but honestly it doesnt wrk..coz i rembr tthere was once i chipp in my own money for a new fon but i ended up spoiling it..wakakaka

fnysh tht all...
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ireallythoughtaboutitandirealliamsoverisooythtispoilturnitetdy.
iadmitthtitwasallmymistakeandiappologizetoyou.iloveyou

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
ps:7 more days

2006-10-21T16:33:00.000+08:00

ermmm..my fon is spoilt tdy..tis is lyk d 5th or 6th fon for me..i DUN HAVE ANYONE TO BLAME..even if partly was coz of himm..wakakaka*evil laughs*jus kidd dear.i still love u...haishhh.. i dunno maybe hps and me are not fated to be tght ..and tht makes me think mayb i shld get u kno..thoes little mini hand computer tingyy..which is p.d.a i tink..or O2..or sumting lyk tt..im dumb wen it comes to electornic stuff lar eh..i guess u cn just tell by judging the no of fons tht i cn nvr take good care off..hahaha..
anyway..3 days bck..dear came ovr was suppose to help clean but abit oni den wtch dvd..spent the past days cleaning my rm aftr tt..and tdy..went to schl to do up DT notice brd..but still i dun tink we did tht much of a job..but i must say tht wen its ready id prefer it more thn the previouS oneS..hehee..
anyway..as usuall..evry yr w/o fail..i'd celebrate hari raye ferst b4 anyone..if u kno wad i mean..YEAh for me..but lyk no larrrr..haishhh..arhhhggg..the cramps..the back ache..the spinns..the so much pain..the "i-dun-wanna-get-out-of-bed-but-i-have-to" feeling..the smell..the pimples..the bloat..hiashh..u dun wanna be a girl at tis point of tym..it shuuchhkkxxx!!

and for the ppl crving to wtch a romance shw..i recomnd an indonesia flim..HEART...i wtch.i lyke.i cried.i love.haissss...the sacrifice made for love...hiashhhh..and the theme sng is lyk nice aso lar..lyk top im singapore's malay radio station..asides frm the raye sngs larr..hahaha

and lastlyyy..i heart alot of ppl.im missing my sec frens..schls re-opning..my time table shuchkx..cnt wait for raye money ...

and ouhhh...ryt as off now...oni 8 days left to my BIG DAY!!!!..i wan pressyyy..if u kno wad i meann

and i love fadzley..
i mus say..if not he angry!!whahahha..

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg

2006-10-17T12:36:00.000+08:00

2 days have passed since the end of megus luna..the shw..as many said was a gr8 one and i'd lyk to thnk all the audience hu came to supprt..whahaha..we got a full hse and yeah..at the end of it i did become a man.hahaha..wif thick and ugly make up tht is..trust me it wasnt a preety sight.hahahaa..and now my face is soo spoilt..im strting to have a breakout of pimples..arghhh..im nvr goona share make up..coz i frgt i have SENSITIVE skin...oukkk...now...bck to MG2..fun fun fun larr..kinnda miss production week here and there..wakakaa...id love to say tht i love my grp..3 wishes and hidayah..tnks biatccchh..hahahahahah..me love MG...i tink if u wan to kno hw the shw went..u cld ask me urslf..i lazee to post.wkakakakaa
nxt i finaaly change my blogskin..tnks to my darling sistaaaa..hahahhaha..soooo..yeaaa

ouhh yarr..13 more days to my big day!!!!wakakkaa

so till den
wif loads of heats
fima darlinGg

2006-10-11T16:02:00.000+08:00

"dont mess wif my man!!"..
whoo i tell u..ive always wanted to say tht..and now i guess its the ryt tym to say..at least in my blog arhhgg...

k ferstlyy..ive been bz wif DT upcoming production..whoo..which seriouzlii i dunt tink im tht up to it yet..will blog abt it wen the shw end..wish me luckk..
so secondly..i'd lyk to say tt i LOVE my guy lar cnn?if anyone .seriouzlii, anyone dun tink tts ryt..i tink tht they shld tell me off larr..wkakaka..fadz and me are a new couple..and tht i admit.we are tghr lyk wad?oni for 5 mths plus lar now..but we've come a long way..and i know tht tht is true.and i also know tht we really do love and adore one anthr.so if in any case there were to be a third party or just some distrction sumwhere, dun blame me if i turn ugly and suddenly become a bitch abt it.coz ferstly i love him..lyk durhh larr..evryone tht knows and RESPECTS me as his girlfren wld kno lar ehh..and secondly i dun wanna loose him..to anyone..double durhh..and so yarhh..dont mess wif my man..coz tings just myt get ugly.. ~wakakakakak*evil laugh!!*
and den..lastly..dnt cross the line wif me..as mention earlier..i cn be a bytch for such tings and i'd nvr regret doing anytingg tht i am soo capable of doingg..wakakaka..i bet fadz knoz tiss..

to end tings off..
I LOVE FADZLEY LAR CNNN??!!!

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
wakakakakakaka!!

2006-10-07T14:43:00.000+08:00

i love love himm..so ystrdy was our 5th mth anni..whooshh..and there..us agn!!!

i stole tis frm his blogg..*shweet* ..i loveee

so it was fasting mth and we had basically nuting to do.we went to bugis.well i was suppose to meet my drama frens to buy some stuff for our prpos and costumes but in the end we didnt go coz some of us cldnt make it.and dear aso fysh wrk earliee so we met at 3..den we slckd ard and played crds..and went to bugis bazaarr..which was lyk blergghhh..and we went to break our fast at ljs..sweet..d day was jus sweet.fun at sum point.and relli nuting to do at summ bt i enjoyed.dear surprised me wif 2 gifts..one baby pooh speaker and one flower+bear..haha.cute..and me?i oni jus bought him a bracelet..plus tt was last min larr..haizz..i felt bad the whl day..hahaha..so yar..sorry dearr tht i din get u anytingg..hope u lyk the bracelet.hahaha..i love LOVE him lar cnn..5 mths just passed tht fast.the tym we spent togthr realli did make us a stngr couple.made us closer and made me love him more..tnks dear..for evryting uve done and for all tht we've shared.yes..no onee cn love me d way u do!!totally adore u!!he was totally adorable ystrdy.and he wore sumting smrt just for me..oouhh..love tht look on him..hahaa..cn i just stare at him and do nuting eles??wakakaka..
ouhh..i love my fringe tht day!!

so tdy had drama.tht belo fnysh wrk earliee bt nvr tell me.instead he surprised me when he came earliee for drama...hahaa..so tdy session was mre meaningful.and was practicaalyy dymm tired tdy..so den we broke fast at techno and then went hm..wooshhh!!drama drama drama..production is in a weeks tym and my bday is lyk in 25 days mre..hahahahaha...
asides all tht..im realli happy for a best fren of mine..for her found one..hahahah..take care gurl..and dun do anyting at the spur of a moment!!

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg

*hermmm..me annd deaarr..we dnt look alikee..DO WE?..hahahaha..*

2006-10-05T14:41:00.000+08:00

id lyk to say it very2 clearlyy...thee cartoon tht was made for fadzleyy..was MADE or CREATED by me at this website tht mel passed me..so dun say tt i copied it or wadeva ok..it was CREATED!!ok..im glad i hv stated tht clearlyy..wakakakaa!!its pointless i kno..haizz..im still very very lazee to compile all my pictures together to post them in the bloggg..soo..tht will be furthr postpone..hahahaha..
so tdy i had rehersal..gt realli restless ard the aftrnoon..and ouhh yarr..speaking of drama..haizz..i ad a nightmare..goshh..its lyk i dunno lar..i hv to cross dress and be a guy.not only tht i have to be a prince..so i studied hw to be a guy ferst and trust me..despiteee all tht i still come acrss as feminine..so i ltr decied to stdy abt hw prince behave and stuff lyk tt..so u kno..i could walk the talk and talk the walk at the same tym..*am i making any sense??..nvrmind*soo..i wtchd dvds tht has priince appearing..stories such as ella enchanted..evr aftr...agn and agn..and finaalyy..when i got to sleepp..i had a nightmare..where all the queens and the stepmother and all thoes royal ppl were scldng me..teeling me tht i nt man enf and stuff lyk tt.haizz..pitty me man..i hv to be a prince..a well groomed one by nxt saturday,14 octobr..for the shw..wish me luckk..
so aftr drama..went to breakfast very2 late readi wif dear and the drama peeps..such an intense conversation they had on vegetarian ppl..sort of remind me of me wen im in an such a convrsation.hahaha.cute.den went to buy bubble tea wif dear..my god..ive been craving for bubble tea for ages..and wen i finnally bought one.it just sux!!haizz..coz the shps tht i usually buy are closed..soo..my last option..haisshhh..soo den i went hm..

putting tht aside..currently i hv 19 more minss left to a special day wiff himm..and also 25 more days to my big day..hahahahaa..

so till den
wif loasd of hearts
fima darlinGg..
howlehhwadtogiveuhee!

2006-10-04T14:08:00.000+08:00

tody is lyk..wth larr
i got hit by a crazee man in the bus and i tell u i hated it..i had to keep reminding myslf tht i was fasting and trust me..tht wasnt tt easy..see..i was on bue 15 wif hinna otw to safra bus stp when suddenly i felt a thump on my back as i was talking.and i tell u..it wasnt a preety sight..some ppl in the bus were practically staring at me..wating for me to do sumtingg..while i was there just claming myslf dwn..and hinna calming me dwn..

hiazz..wif tht saidd...i'd lyk to adress the othr prt of my entyr to him.. ferstlyyy... id lyk to say..hw cn u say tt my enrty is boringg..wen i nvr wryt abt u..idiot u..
and u kno wad..i did a test and guess wad...it said..

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful
But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself
You're the perfect blend of independent and caring
You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

SEEEE....im a TOTAL CATCH LAR EH!!hahahahaa..action pulakk!!..so, hw cn u say tht anyting bad abt me..or wadeva..blueekkk..see..its proven..im a gr8 girlfriend..hahaha..to furthr shw u tt im a gr8 gf..*wakakaka..pearasann sehh!!*see wad ive made for u...

i took a photo of....

andddd..

tadaaaa!!!!

i've craeted a cartoonn version of itt...isnt it lyk soo cute...and sumhow it look abit lyk u lar

*isnt he lyk dymm cutee..*

seee...im such an angel..hahaha

so yarr

till den

widf loads of hearts

fima darlinGg

i lovee lembuuuuu

2006-10-03T13:07:00.000+08:00

ferstlii..im soo lazee to post any pic tdy..wld be doing tt soonn..wakaka..but my hand is soo itchingg to update my bloggy..!!..even wen i have absolutly nuting to say...hahahaa
so..its monday..2nd october..and its lyk..27 days to go..*to my big day*hahaha..whoo.cnt wait.hahahhaa
so..i went to geylang bazzar for two days straight and i haven bought anytingg at all.nuting , i repeat NOTING seems to have caught my attention..even if there is ..its juz wayy beyondddd..ermmm...so i haven bought anyting for raye tis yrr..and boy i dun tink i hv much tym left..hahaha..i tink id leave to my mom to decide on wad she wans coz she says tt im too "cerewet" larr..
anyway..id be bz wif the upcuming drama production which i hv loaddss to wrk on.tml will be meeting my drama peeps..and will be watching ever aftr to look at the characthr and stuff lyk tht..and hv our rehersal too..blerrghh..
ouhhhh...i wanna say..ive been doing alot of this bloggthingss..the quizess..i luurrrvveee doing em..but i lazee to post them lar but i'd post one....

You Are Jennifer Aniston

Girl next door with a free spirit.
You're low key and naturally sexy.
Sweet and approachable, people are attracted to your upbeat attitude.
And even when life doesn't go your way, you always eventually turn things around.

Are You More Like Jennifer or Angelina?

i did tis..and i love the reslt..for one reason..i lovee jennifer and i HATE angelina..hahahahaha..

so till den

wif loads of hearts

fima darlinGg

i love love..hahaha

2006-09-29T15:09:00.000+08:00

my qn..are u proud of who i am?

tdy i met themm..ida..mel..acap..ilahh..and dear came alngg tooo..but he came aftr wrk lar ehh!!.suppose to meet at 2.30 but as usuall..ida...late..nvr changee..hahah..we were realliii lykk dull..there was no place to go and nutingg to do..we din plann anyting or wad larr..and wrst of all..we were fastingg..mst of us had no enrgy..wantd to wlk to lau pa sat far larr..but lazee..but ovrall..i reallii love the day..coz i met tht ppl i lovee!whooo...and we ate..kfc.jus had to say tt..coz i reallii miss eating kfc..dear and me were called buffalos by tht idiotic mel..coz we ordrd a large drinkk and we were still thirsty..hahahaha..wad u xpect..thirstyy beb!!and the best part..bth of us craved for gassy drinkk..and sweet drinkk..lalala.*sweet ppl need sweet stuff*

im tryingg to gt my SI pics fromm himm..but its soo lykk lagging larr.i hate his compp..the nxt enrtyy..im gonna try to post 4 set of pics..my cuzzy outing,dt peeps,SI idol pics and tdyss outingg..hahahaha..

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
ps:look...xctlyy one mre mth..its my BIRTHDAYYY
hahahaha..anywayy..i love him!!!only one!!tnkx love..for evrytingg

2006-09-27T13:24:00.000+08:00

fastingg mthh is upp noww..
tdy is the ferst day tht i am breaking fast at hmm..and guess wad i had too fry fishh!but wadeva lar ehh..
so anyway..the ferst 2 days i was awayy at thee indoor stadiumm..shoutingg my lungss out!!!
my ferst day to the indoor stadium strtd off wif a bumm..well.was suppose to go wif him.but last min..he just clndnt go..and..i was at ct hall oredii. bt tinggs gt slightlyyy betta wen i met ilyass and his frenss..made somee crazee frenss..andd enjoyed.ferst dayy..i was stndingg ryt infrnt.and i swear wen i waved to hady his lipss strtd moving and i saw him say.."ehh..its uu"..he waved bckk and smiledd..guess he rembrd me..but thts wad i saw.. i hope im rytt..but u kno..it was kindaa scry cozz wen u there u kno soo well tht bth jon and hady are superb.i din thought itd be tis way..its soo unlike the pervious one where taufikk is wayy betta thn slyy..
speakingg of taufikk..OMG larrr..he is lykk dayymmm daymmm HOT larr..saw him on the 2nd day wen im at the indoor stadium.my god!!and i was stnding at the same spot where i did on the ferst day lar..which is way up FRONT..so the 2nd dayy..he made a surprise and shwed up tho he was sick.realii appriciate tt.loves.and met mas.fifi.hinna.and at the indoor stadium.we met dt cutes couple..*i tink im gonna call them tht*..joee and dill..and met fifi and dilahh.frm rp..*ouhh tis fifi is actualii a boy*..andd SHOUT out loudd!!dymm larrr..taufikk..omg!!i tell u..haisyaaahh..i dunno wad to say lar ehh..he is lykk dymm cutee lar..esp wen he wink at us..omg..i cnt take it larr ehh!!!denn sangg along wen rahimah rahim.*the oldr one!!* got on stage wif the top 10 finalist.jumpp ardd.i was dymm high larr..all at 1 tym..energy..electrico..tanya chua..rahimah rahim..top 10 finalist..gurmit & dan..the muttons..jonathan leong..andd the best dishh of the performance..TAUFIK batisah & HADY mirza...it was just lyk whooo..andd im just lyk..ahhhhh!!..and one highlight of the nite was wen gurmit announced the champion!!hady mirza!!omg larr..haisshh..now i hv 10 punishment for him coz he rooted for jonn..hahahaa...day was spent nicely!i dun hv pics currentlyy..wll wif himm..and ilyas fren wanna send me the picss too!!cool beb..wen i get em id post themm..but till den ppl.miss me!!

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
ps:..am i jus tht or am i as wad u said i am..all tht..reallli..i dun feel appreciated sumtymss..but bleerrgghh

2006-09-24T14:43:00.000+08:00

im nnott gonnaa updatee much tdyy..
i jus wanna sayy..forzaa..u guyss did ur bestt..and if things dun wrk out now..or tdyy..it will in the near future IF u guys wrk hard..u guyss are awwsomee no matter wadd...thee trainnng and hrd wrkk..thts wad make u all special.besides u all still have me as ur supporterr
andd abg boyyy...DNT BE UPSET!u still rwkk my sockss offf..andd too sentiloo..u too..u did well guysss...
to dearieee...u still rwkk my lyff..love u!and im proudd of u tdyy !! .very proudd of u actually!!!!u did ur bestt..and DUN give up dear..i lovee u..soorryy tt i cnt cheer u up alott..and thnks for spending tym wif me tdyy!!heart heart heart u!

so will update soon
wif loads of heartss
fima darlinGg
PS:SI LIVE TML AND MON!!!ID BE GOING WIF DEARR!!!!
heart himmm

2006-09-23T14:29:00.000+08:00

day strtd out horrible for me.one reason.i almost got bangg by a car wen i sent izzul to schl in the mrning..denn alot happened too..i pour it all outt frm wad happen since the wee hrs of mrning till aftrnoon to my sponge in the bus sitting eatingg he many2 medecinee..eeiiuuueee..but denn..tings did turn out worsee..but as the nite pass it got betta..even nw at hm..i just ate..goshh..i broke my routinee of not eating aftr 8..hiashh..but its ok..fasting mth is cummingg..soo cn loosee here and there..i HOPE...hahaha
anywayy..bigg thnkieess..too all...who cares..hahahaha..anyway..tmlm i'd be waking up dymm earliee..to go see him..he and mee..we are one hell of a ridee..hehesshh..not tht its a good tingg..but yeahhh..its a fct..
duringg drama tdy..i slcked alott.hearing basically 2 sngs..im not missing u..and hurt
fyi..the sng hurt helpp me pull tru alott..its a dymmnicee snggg..i lovee itt..sygggtissnggisforruu

~hurt~christina aguilera
seems lyk it was ysrtdy
wen i saw ur face
u tld me hw proud u were
wen i walk awy
if only i knew
wad i know tdy

i would hold u in my arms
i would take the pain away
thank you for all u've done
forgive all ur mistakes
theres nuting i wldnt do
to hear ur voice agn
sumtyms i wanna call u
but i kno u wnt be there

im sorry for blaming u
for evryting i just coulndt do
and i hurt myslf
by hurting u

some days i feel broke inside
but i wont admit
sometyms i jus wanna hide
coz its u i miss
& its so hard to say good bye
wen it comes to tis

would u tell me i was wrng
wld u help me undrsntd
are u looking dwn upon me
are u proud of who i am
theres nuting i wdnt do
to have just one more chance
to look into ur eyes
and see u looking back

im sorry for blaming u
for evryting i just coulndt do
and i hurt myslf

if i had just one more day
i wld tell u hw much tht i miss u
sinec u've been away
its dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

im soory for blaming u
for everyting i just cldnt do
and i hurt myslf
by hurting u

hahahahhaa..ok sot till denn
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
loveee lemmbuu..andd sorryy for evytingg

2006-09-21T14:56:00.000+08:00

im tireddd...
i swearr the ppl in drama tecc just cnt seee camera anywhere nearbyy..
well..tdy there was rehersal and i brought the camera..well for the notice bord larr..but guess wadd..they just cldntt stpp snaapingg picsss..

iwldd soo lovee to shww u the picss but i cntt..blooger hass somee prbb i tinkk..soo yeahhh..nxt tymm fellass..

anyywayyy..i got tix forr tis yr singapore idol..bthh perfromance and reslt shwww!!!!!!!WHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
im daymm happy lorrkkxx..& a BIG thnks to my love forrr tisss..whhooosshhhh...

anddd soo till denn
wif loads of heartsss
fima darlinGg

2006-09-20T06:44:00.000+08:00

my message to: khairul anwarr
SORRYYY
tht tymm i goott sumtingg up..
bz lerrr
anywayy..tis whle entryy for u..cnnn???
soo...peepss..
tis entryy is justt forr khaiiiii...
HAPPY BELATED BirthDAYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i stolee tiss picc frmmm hiss blogg..hahahaha..as u cnn see..tis is my mepek frenn..aso known as giler..which is crazee...hahahaa..
KHAII...u are lykk sooo 18 oreadiii..dunn be angryy wiff mee...im soorryy..hahahaha..ure a bigg boyy noww..wheeweett..and soo u cnn soo stpp ur nonsense cnn..hahaha..u've changed alottt sehh..still rmbr almst 3 yrs bckk wen i fest saw u in class..gosshh soo quitee..nowww!!makkoiit...nutingg betta to do but too distrubb ppl..hahahah..eh ur pizzaa nxt tymm wen i strt werkk cnnn?anywayy..wenn u gonna treat me wif ur payy huh???
anywayyy..seee u on my burfdayy wif my pressyyy..i'd buy u onee...hahahahaha..kk..take care bro...

so till den..
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg

2006-09-17T06:50:00.000+08:00

soooo...yestrdyyyy..
realli dinn plann too doo itt..but yeahhh...
i meett hadyy mirzaa and jonathan leongg...
whoossshhh...i dunn hv any picss of themm cozz currenttllyy alll of it is wiff my frennn..but anywayy..tis is wad im gonnaaa showw...whhooo..their signaturessss.....

hadyyy&jonn's signaturee....whahahahaa
soo anywayyy..hahahaa..i did summtingg cheeckky..i went up to hadyy ryt before i asked him to sign for me and said.."hadyyy..i love u.."whahahaa..wad d hell..den he smiled at me and asked for my name and he wrote dwnn tht he loves me toooo..anyway hady's smile is soo cheeckk..wth...warrrrr...den i shake his hand and all..andd jon jus asked me my name and sign..he gave me a poster asoo..but jon seems to chat alot wif rainbow..and she's daymm high..whahaha..but i heard some ppl got tix for the finallss...whichh i so din get..and im lyk wad d hell..i wanna goo leehh..coz i went for taufik's one...i wanna see the diff in this onee..hahaha..pluss i tink i've made up my mind to surpport hadyy all the wayy..coz he can singgg...but i still prefer taufik thoo..ahhahhaaa..so thts tht..andd yarr...
anywayyy...hadyy and taufikk is wayy off the list for anytingg in my lyff..but u kno deyy wldnt even wan me i tinkk..ahaha..wth..but just to get tt fact right..haha..i myt idolize etihr of themm and myt just goo gaga wen i see themm and screammm and shoout wen i gt to shake their handss and wen they say they love mee too...haha..but i kno tht i have the best guy of all..yeahhh..1 tht is just for me and no one eles...if onii he knew..there myt be no perfect guy..but he..he's just the closest to it..and his flawss are all paart of y i accpted him at first.and i kno tht i wnt look at his flaws and finaaly say tht "ouhh..he jus sux" coz he dnt!.i wishh he kneww...anywayy..wen he says he loves me..i wnt go gaga and sreamm and jumpp abot..but my lil heart inside me will just smilee and give a flip.coz i kno tht it all just feels ryt..its comfortingg..and tht the best part of itt..pluss i dnt need a big shot guy or sumone more to make me happy..i oreadii am happy where i am..wif the 1 thts just right for me.actually always happy and content wif the small things he does for me..i boast more abt him thn i evr abt anyone eles..i hope he knows..anywayy..the guy tht im talking about is himm..yeahh..d one guy tht i truly adore & love..i love him lyk i cn love noone eles.i cnt bear to let him goo and the thought of sumone taking him frmm my lyff just kills mee..so yerppss..there goess anyone eles coz my mind is nvr wif me..it attached itslf to him..my heart..he stole it oreadii..and my lyf...its himmm..and dis..i know he knows..so yeahhhh...i do love him more thn anythinggg..trust me..i do..and i pray tht he trust

so till deenn
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg

2006-09-15T10:09:00.000+08:00

caughtt in the rainnn..and i still havenn bathhh.. hooppinnggggtooogetttttsiccckkk.. hahahaha
tdyy the weather was lykk dunnoo wadd..in the morningg it wasss dymm hot..denn suudeennlyyy it just rainnedd..by 3.30..the sky looked as if it was 7 at nightt..ermmm...now i guess its bck to normal..funny hw the weather actualli compliments my mood..anywayy..its the tymm of the mth of yarr..kinndaaa lyykk stupidd fool..
anyywayyyy..my backk is achingggg..and im still dymm tiredddd...anddd im havingg headacheeee..wheee..but highlight of the dayy was certainnllyy gettingg to eat junkk food and ermmm yarrhhhpppp..chocolatessss..nvr fail to fill me uppp...anywayyy..i heart cadburyy chocolateeee..YUUMMMYY.. *smliesss wideelyyy*
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ermmmm..noww...shant tlkk muchh..xpt for the fact tht..maybe sometimes u dont realize wad u got until u loose it..evr heard off tht b4??well..i was readingg an email by one of cuzzyy abtt hw tis two ppl dnt kno hw muchh they mean to echh othr and stuff untill one of themm diesss..hw cnn ppl be soo oblivious abt the surroundingsss and nvr listenn to wad it has to sayy.most of us let the actions we have to control ovr soo manyy tinggs we do in lyf..and we regert..many timess we're too bz doingg tingss tht we frgt wad matters and wad dntt..pluss we dnt appreciate anytingg.andd sumtymmss lyf wrkss its magicc denn it'd just bee too latee for anytngg..but how do u say wads really deep down in ur heartt..how do u xpress urslff in words tht othrs can jus simplyy listen and be happyy..even i cnt do tht.and tht im suree...
soo anywayy..the email said "tell the people u love that u love them now before its too late"
soo..
moommyy&daddyyy i lovee youu..thks for making me the girl i am tdy..tnks for ur support in my lyff..u mean soo muchhh...
kakak,abg,ifu&izzul i lovee you guyssss to the coree...i myt seem to hate u..but u guyss mean alott to meee..
othr family membrs..cuzzy,aunty,uncles,grandma..love u guys...jus rckk
illahh..babee..i soo miss u andd lovee u alottt..tnkss for being there wif me and all...
ida,mel,rosieee...monkeyyssss..im missing u guyss..and my holidayss are here but we are still not goingg out..i love u guyss...
acap,khai..u guyss are lykk my brooo...stupidd oness..but yeahhh...
yuehh wann..my bus partnerr..i love,love u..hahaha..actuallii i tink i love u..hahaa..
hinna,sanjii,andrw,saba,kenneth..i love u guyss soo muchh..tnks for undrsntdingg
azreenn..i love u and miss u..
and to all my othr frenss..i just love u guyss..and thks for being part of my lyf..
anddd finaallyy as for himm..the guy tht i jus need..i love u.and i just simply do.i wont choose to leave u.not tdy and i hope not till forevr.u complete me.u just do tht.and yes we fight.almsot all the tymm..and i am soory for tht.if i caused u painn.but,i wan u to kno tht at thoese tymss i nvr evr doubt my love for u.ur smile is one tht brightens me.ure just u.and i simply love u for tht.u simply would never be replaced.i trulyy love u fadzley.
DONE!!now u go and tell the ppl u love tht u love them before its too latee..

so till denn
wif all my love
fima darlinGg
*ivemademydecisionhwabtuu*

2006-09-14T14:46:00.000+08:00

i need a jobbb asappp..haiissshhhh...need moneyyyy..badlyyy..desprate..its all tht i cn tinkk off now..helllppp...
gooshh i just hope tht tml i will settle evryting thing tht is left outsndinggg..heesssshhh..and fynshh it alll off theree...ermmmm...i got bckk my reslts by the wayyy..heeee...ermmm..not good tho..but no subb paper for me..so i was wrng in my predictionnn..aiiyaahhhhh..hahahaa..so yarrr....at least tt went welll..buck up for nxt semm!!!i need too dramatically improve my gradeeeessss...
heee.just fynshhd readiinnggg tonss of stuuppiiddd emailsssss..dayymmmmm stuupiddd larrr..haiisshhhh...wadd thee heell..
ermm yaehhh...i got an intervieeww tml at dw company..japan product compannyy..whichh i tinkk i myt nt be goingg becoz the pay is lyk based on commission and monthly target..im not keenn in thoes stuff..need sumting more lyk has a basic salaryy for me..anywayy i dunn intenddd to contiuee workingg longgg..soo tmll id bee off to schll andd othr placess...den fridayy bck too dramaa..soo yerrhhhppp...tired?tht i amm....
i amm reallii dymmm tiredd..i need a breakk frmm everyyttinggg..evnn my lyf..haiissssss...i wanna juss indulgee myslf in tonns of chocolateeess..sweetsss..ice creammm..&...choocolateess..i wanna just sittt there eatingg and hugging dear poohhh..and not moveeee my buttt...i wannnaaa just REST..but nooo..i cnttt..theres so much to do..so muchh tht is left undonee..ARGHHHhhh.. i knoo .im beiinnggg whinnyyy here and i dunn caree...call me childishh or wadeverr..i dun careee...i just wannnaaaa shoutttt my lunggsss outtt..... AAarrRRrgGgghhHHhhh ...theres jus sumtingg abt fahimah tht u wnt undersntdd...*cheeckkyy smilee* ..kill me someonee..

soo till deeenn
i wann chocolateesss sumoneee
fima darlinGg
i love me,u&everyoneee...

2006-09-11T06:37:00.000+08:00

im backk to blooggg..
well my days have been fine soo farrr
lets seee..on..
friday i went to drama..had my lunch wif dear b4 going to drama and den ltr he sent me hm.tnks.met some peeps thn i reallii misss..haha..haven had the tymm to go outt wiff any of them..golly i miss theemm..alot.esp tt idiot tht i call spongee...haaa...
well..for mugus luna tts cumin up in less thn 2 mths..it tink my grps kinndaa ok.hehe..but we have to strt our rehersalss runiing soonnn..wheeee~...and my msg to rinboww...i love wad u made for ur bestiiee..BUT i wan a better burfday present thn wad u made for ur frenn..i wan a reeaaalllii bigg and better onee..haha..and for the rest readinnggg..my burfday is nxt mthh..well..i wantt PRESSEEEYYYYYY!!!!!..preeety preeettyy pleeeeaaasseeeee.. dun make me begg for ittt...hahaha..
ystrdy i had funn going out wif dear and his ganggg...crazeee bunch of peopleee...went to EC for picnic..no pics tho..haha..i'd ask frm dear ltr..well..it was crazee..we playedd alot of games..lyk murderer-2 versions of it..charade-i tink its spelled lyk tt..truth or dare-which was hillariouss esp bul,lala and dear's dare..haha..cnt tke it..bul had to shake his butt and act lyk a monkey..lala..a sumo wrestler..dear..ouhh..too sexy for everytingg..he had to do a strip dancee..where he stipp his shirt off..haha..heartattack-which set evryone on high spirit.and we dun seem to kno whyy..hmmm?*thinikinn*haha..anywayss..i realli had funn ystrdy..kinnda lyk couplee outing too..wen u cum to tink of it.lyk grp date.me&dear.. lala&yan.. ain&feizal.. sha&dave.. and wads left.. mag&bul?? hehee..they're kindaa cutee..hahaha
anyway..todayy im not going out..pluss its rainingg heavilyy here..and im in shorts and im colddd...but wad the heckk...today is aso dee's burfdayy..incase u dnt kno..dee is the guy my sis is datingg..so ltr sis will surprise himm..she asked me..shld i wish him burfdy at midnit or pretend to frgt..i told her to pretend to forget..hahahaha..so ltr dee will get a surprise..but here my wishh for himm..happy burfday deee...may u be happy alwasss...

lovely sis and herr burfday boiii....
*shwweeeet**

so till den
wif loads of heartss
fima darlinGg~
itss kinnddaaa w3irEdDdd*x_x"
i loveeeeeee my lemmbuuuuu

2006-09-06T16:32:00.000+08:00

its me & him todayyy

its ourrrr
annnnniii tdyyyyyy...
wheeeeeeee~~~
4 mth went by...hiasshhhh..

so tdy..herrmmmmhhh...lets see....day strted out rocky but tings got better as the day went on..u see..im the bus, my heart was raciinnggg lykk madd..argghhhh..dun wanna recall tht..finally met him deariieee at esplanade roof topp...silencee..just emotions..filled the air when we met for the ferst few mins..we've been through alot in the past mth..alot tht many myt have just given up..for us...we almst lost it,a couple of tyms..either me or himm..but i guesss u cnt always follow ur emotions tht run wild and just loose control ovr things..if thts so thn u'll kno tht u are not readii..wen i saw him for the ferst tym in a week tht was filled wif emotions..i realized tht..he was the one i turly love now..hahaha..den..emotions run high..and i missed him soo muchh...he did me too..

so we sat at outside the toilet tlaking abt wad hapened to us and stuff and xchnge gifts..hahahaa..i bought for dear..a cute lil cars pillow tht i bought ystrdy and chocz..and he gave me tis cute lil vase, a yellow socks and a lovely love letter all in a cute golden box.thnk love..heart u..hahahaha...den we went to eat at ljs and talked sumoree ant wad happened..any yar...ouuhh btw...the ppl were unfair..they severd fadz plate more thn mine..can u believe it..i tink they found out tht im on a diet..hahahahaha...anywayss..ltr we were undecied on where to go..so ferst plann was to play bowling..but plann was foiled as the place was pack..so i decided tht we'd wcth a movie since its been soooo loonggg tht eithr of us wtch..and yarhh..we nvr do these typical couple ting so much..hahahaha..sooowe wtchedd monstr houseeee..hahahaha..movie was cute...veri diff frm othrs..ok lar..not lyk sooo fun or exciting...is it wrth ur 7 bucks??well..movie alone was a yes but a no too.abit unsure..but wif sumone special..a yes..hahaha...soo,den aftr moviee..we sat by the bay siiting and chatting..and we made our mark dere..heesshh..den we went hm..dear sent me all the way to wdlnds..haha....

anyway...dear and me made a promise..is it a promise?anyway..10 yrs frm now..no matter wad happens...to us..on 5 sept 2016..we'd be at esplanade ard 6..hahahaa..hopfully...tht will happpen..pry for us..whooshhh...

see..one ting we talked abt tdy is abt him being himslf..honestlii..i love fadz and hate him for the same reasonn..aghhhh..hahaha..he has to be more selfsyh...tink abt himslf..he is not superman..doing tis..doing tht..and tht he goes ard helping ppl all the tym..yes..but wad abt himslf? i feel tht sumytym..he deserve a break..frm evryone..evn me..hahaha...syg..u are my spydy..but even he needs rest..tink abt it will u..hahaha

iabsolutelovetoday.itwasabueatifuldisaster.
i love my dayyy..tnks syg for a lovelyy dayyyy...
plsduntellmetoleavehimcoziwontknowheretogofrmthere

our mark by the bayy....f3..<3
hahahaa..cuttee...

i bought for himm~wheeee

adorable dear..hugging his gift..
shweett...

bcoz i simplylovehim...

and for my fav pic of the dayyy

i cn simply drwn i his eyes..

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg

2006-09-06T14:59:00.000+08:00

im gonna post 2 entryyy tdyyy..wheeee..
its been a whie since i've updateee..wheeee..so i tink its gonna be a loooong entry tdy..
hahahaa..

lets seee..
mondayy..28 august...my dayy was all abot herrr......ilahhh...happy burfday dear..so aftr paper i met deariee..he accompanied me to go buy ilah's stuff..hahaha..so later i went to causeway where ilah waited for almost 45 minss for mee...im dymm sorryy babe...denn we went to a shp and i bought her chocolate plus a lighter..den ilah gets soo worked up and strted asking me qns if i smoked or not.den i siad yes,den she asked if my bf knew about it and i said no...den so many othr qns she asked..hahaha..and i kept lying and lying to her..hahaha..den i asked her if we could sit outside causewayy coz i wanna "somke".hahaha.so we sat pathetically on the floor behind metro..and i gave her tis really really reallly small cake and lit up one candle.hahahaa..its a mini surprise for her..im soory lah dat i din do muchh..hahaha..so we laughed2..talked crapp..ande she teared on her burfdayy..haizzz ilahh...i really hoped u ejoyed ur tym wif me aftr a verii loonnggg tymmm...hahahahahaa..she misss me sooo much..hahahaha....den i have her my gift..tis realli nice pair of buttterfly earings tt she wont use i tink..but i realli liked it..it remined me of her..so i bought it..hahaha..so she ate at mac..den i ate at ljs.den we waited for deariie to come..and ilah met deariee..hahaha..he gave her a sweet tt she's realli proud to get..hahaha..and he sang for her a burfday song tht was just abrubt.hahha..illah left for home later...babe..i realli hope u enjoyed urslf and soorii i din get u anyting big or wad..buget tight.hahaa..den..dearieee came ovr to my housee and studied wif me..hahaha..ok i realized tht i cn studdyy wayyy wayy better if sumone was there wif me..u know whyy?..ccoz they wld be there by my side scolding me..asking me to stdyy and stuff lyk thtt..whoooo..noisyyyy....just lyk deariee..but i kno...its god for me..hahaha..and the paper the nxt day..it was do-able...hahahaha..tnks deariee.love u.

tuesday-wed.exams.mugging.nuting muchh up lar..basicallyy tht.hahahaha..

thursday.31 august.mark of my last paper and teacher's day.im preety sure tt i'd have to take sub later for the day before papre but still end of exams did call for a clebration din it..hahaha..ok the day partly was rouge here and there.wld not elaborate.hahaha.paper can manage for tht day.sooo..as soon as i fynshed paper..i rushed out of schl.met maria and whoosshhh..bck to wooldands and took 963 to fjs..hahahaa..there were no direct bus frm tp to fjs so..yarehhh..wasted my tym.hahaha..soooo...... went bck to schl..missed tht place..but guess wad?i was infrmed tht the x students cldnt get in to the schl to ctch athe concert..how pathetic is tht??hahahaha..u'd nvr kno wad fjs wld do nxt..disallow x students to even stp in the schl?haisshhh..but even soo...aftr tt..they got in the schl.and by the tym i arrived..almost everyone was goneee..and there was absolute no point tt i went bck there..but yeahhhh..den i met ilah..went to bp..met mel and kai xiang..ate sito came..den acap came.den we met khai and adli sumwhere unxpcted and den all of us went to lot 1..whoosshhh..at lot 1 it was lyk madd...hahahaha..not knowing whre to go coz the pool table were fully booked..den later later..we got a table..the guys plyed pool and the girls,well yeahh..sit, chat..ctch up on old tyms..i missss my sec daysss..where have dey gonee..hahahhaaa..so ard 5 plus we went bck and tnks to my bro acap hu decide tht he wants to send me home..den he had to bear my stry of hollywood and stuff..too much happen..but wad i wanna say id thnk RAHEELAH, ACAP, KHAI, ADLI, MELISSA, KAI XIANG & SITO for a lovely and wonderful day..they names are blod because tht ppl forced me to..hahahahaa

tis is me and beloo acap and selenger khai
otw to lot 1......

me and the gurl i trully adore..
one tht i cn rely on..ilah..lala..

pluss i have YET to recieve pics frmm kx..ahhhrrrr....

friday,i din go out..

saturday, im tinkingg..but i seem to frogot what i did...

so sunday, kendurii at cik's place..aftr kenduri usual cuzzy stuff dan played more gamesss by papa and stuff...enjoyed...

and monday agn....

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
~nxt enry for my day tdy..wheeee

2006-09-05T14:30:00.000+08:00

im hurtt..so just lemme wait plssssss...

2006-09-05T13:03:00.000+08:00

i'd wait.its a promise.
i guess finally i've lost it..heeee...
haixx...i did enjoy my day tdy..i wntd to sty home tdy.i was dymmmm tired frm ystrdy plus i had a headeache..but..denn..went out wif cuzyy on a dymm shrt note..guess u wldnt belive tht it happened.haishh..if i wasnt oredii out..i wldnt...anywayy..i bought sumting tdy..haha..its really cute tho..hahaha..but i wnt tell.its a secret..hahaha...well..we took pics.laughed.smiled.haha.catch up on things and we found tht we haddd loooadddss the same..pics nxt post cnn??
soo tml wld be our anni..haha..i'd be waiting for himm at marina at 12..hahah...heshhhh..jus pray for me aitee...ermmm...soo yarhhhh..lets see wad comes..

so till den
for one last tym im holding strgg
fimaa darling..
will post on the previous week soonn

2006-08-28T03:43:00.000+08:00

i haven been studyinggg...properly tht is...
exams tml..tml..dieeeeeeeee
wish me luck...
I NEED IT.hahahahahaha.x_X

well..alot has happened.
dear came ovr on wed to wtch dvd.
went to burfday parties.
papa left off to thailand in the morning jus not.
and ect.ect.

haissssss...will update properli nxt tym..hahaha.
now going to kakak noor's hse.
wheeeeee....

immisssinghimmsooomuchhh
holdontometightlywenuseemeanddunletmego
foruidshedtearsandnvrregretdoingso
hemakesmemehemakesmesmile
because i heart him, can??o_O.

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg

2006-08-23T10:23:00.000+08:00

whooshhh~

hahahahahaa

I LOVE MY LEMBUU

ThknZ sayang for everying

this few days has be fun fun fun for me.

saturday.sentosa family dayy.i went swimming.slack at the beach and had fun.hahaha.

here are some of pics taken...

the event ~

me and my sis

my face?wad the hell..hahax

an, taking part in the games.

can u see a heart?

well actualii he was making a monkey on a tree wif lyk abt 5 long balloons.cool huh

sunday.cuzzy came ovr.dareiee aso came ovr.actuall plan is for dear to come ovr and we wtch DVD.but no.coz cuzzy came so yearhh.he karaoke wif cuzzy and aunts and uncles.den he played "for u i'll make a song".whoosssshh.den we played our usuall cuzzy game.it was the boys against the gurls.hahahaa.not realii tho.in the gurls rgp got 1 boy daneil and the boys grp got 1 gurl.mama.hahaha.dear joined in the game too.haha.it was funni wen we wanted to separate to our grps.haha.we had our mini plans dan,an,me and dear but kak noor foiled our plans.but wad the hell.the game was fun.plus we the gurls grp lost.haiz..hahaha.but day was rated ****(4 strs) wheeeee..i likeee...enjoyed the dayy...

monday.woke up earli.ermm.basicalli spent my day wif deariiee.we went to east coast to study.he brought mee so tht wad we ate the whl day.fyi.i did study ok.ermmm..but asides tht.we made a song.more of lyk he made tht song and i just say if i lyk or not.hahaha.den we had a gr8 tym togther on monday.whoooshh.love him more and more evrytime.anyway den he came ovr for a while and supppose to brainstrm on athr song but we din.hahaha.den hear went hm den end of day.day was rated ****(4 strs too)..

todayy.woke up.sent izzul to sch.sleep.woke up.clean the hse.sleep agn.and i did nuting basically.maybe tonite i'd study my csa.haha.yeahhh.slack lerpsss.but i deserve the rest.whooo~

on th way to EC wif himmm

love him.belo

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima DarlinGg
lovelovelove

2006-08-20T14:50:00.000+08:00

today..
9 plus..went to sentosa wif famili for daddy's company family day..swim.eat.slack.
4 plus..reached hm.sleep
7 plus..woke up.bath.got ready
8 plus..went to causeway and pasarmlm.bought burgr ramly.
9 plus..reach hm.
noww....
updating bloggg..daymm pissed wif the comp..dunnoo got the thing keep popping out..
sluking wif fadz..coz whl day nvr "layan" me properli.mux punish him...hehehe..
still in my outside clothes.haven change to my pyjamas.lazeee..
tiredddd.daymmmm

update proprli nxt tym

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
lembuu deariiee u wtch out!!!

2006-08-18T14:27:00.000+08:00

i love him.
many said we need a break, some say we are not meant to be
but oni we know wad we wan.
and i love him.

fima is fine, happy and loved...
can??? o_O..

ourjigsawfairytale
ihopeulykit

2006-08-17T14:24:00.000+08:00

bckk!!
feels..--------------
fima give up..dunoo wad to do....shes lost..help!!!!!!!!
its no use pressing on tings tht wnt wrk.so ive decided to let it be.my life.i paused it sumwhere.still unsure of the ending.if this is it thn this is it.so lets just wait till it get bck to trck.sooo till den..i'd be wishing tht things wld be fyn plus i wll sty strg for this.

quote frm click.."will u still love me in the morning?"..niceee...

so till den
wif hearts
fima
ourjigsawfairytale

2006-08-16T14:31:00.000+08:00

an entryy just for him..

i dont know what we have to prove.
i dont know what i have to prove.

i hate egos tht the humans have.
i hate the pain that we can feel.

im sorry to have hurt u before this.
im sorry to have made things wrong sometimes.

one ting i know for sure is that i love you so.
thanks for loving me so much.

our lives.our story...f3

*our pics wen we were new to us*

**my feelings for him changed overtimee**

***as it kept growing and growing and growing***

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fimaaa feelss emotionless tniteee..*enthh ehh y..o_O"..-my face now looks like tiss
fimaaa needss chocolateee..pleashh sumonee buy me tons of it...[preety preety pleashhhhhh]
fimaaa wantss hugg noww..~pooohhh bearrr darlinggggg!!~
fimaaa is goinggg nutssss noww..*bite fingerss*
fimaaa dont knoww whatt to do noww..~~wheeeeeee~~

ouhhhhh..btw..haaaaa.jus now aftrr a looonggg time..i played wif towel agn*fadz towel*..now i kindaa miss the secondary days wen i hang a towel ard me wenevr i brought one to schl.wheeee~
anywayy todayy was funn..wheee~i simled,i laughed,i was nervous,i was stressed and i was wif fadz.fun?well for me at least it was fun. =P

so, dunno wad eless,till den
wif loads of heartss
fima darlinGg

2006-08-13T06:17:00.000+08:00

the most embarasing ting evr.hahaa..
i won say much but tis is roughly wad happened.
moments aftr drama ended.
i fell.tnks to hinna.*not blaming u*
on my bum.and i hit my head.
it hurts so muchh..until tdy!!
wnt go into details.
agrrhhhh..dymm embrasingg!!
and i kept laughing!
o_O''
---------------------------------------------------------
anywayy..
yestrdy my mind just went blank as i was walking to the bus stp wif deariee.i thought about all the pain both he and i shared before.many has been witness to the most painful part in our lives.i wonder than, if the love we shared can remove the pain we've been through.so i stopped him and stared in his eyes.all he saw was me being tired.guess i was tired *esp aftr the fall*. i needed that warmth he gave me yestrday.wen he wispred to me asking me if i was alright and was there a problem.i guess i was alright.i just need to kno that he'd be there by my side always. my heart gave a lil flip wen i saw him being concern.i guess yestrday i just need more confirmation on the security he has to give me.and i got my answer.i love him. and i kno tht he loves me too.
dearrieee..tnks for everytingg...u made me special..
::u are my lyf::my everyting::

*deariee drw tis for me for 3rd mth*shweet*

so till den
wif loads of love
fima darlinGg

2006-08-11T10:16:00.000+08:00

had enuffffff!!!!
hahahaa..
k i slept lyk a pigg today..no scl.wheeeee~~
so..
woke up at 12
nuting to do..
slept agn at 2 plus
nuting to do..
just woke up
dreadddd!!!!!

ermmm....k im bored.ermmmm..
finallii i finished my projectss for tis sem.
left oni wif the exams which is lykk 2 weeks to go.
dyammm.
hate examss.
dreadddd!!!!!

but finalli aftr all tht im freee!!
thn i have my loonggg breakk
cant wait for tht!!!
been wanting to meet up wif my lovers in sec schl!!
misss `dem loadsssss
dyammm!!!!!

tis entry is totali redundent.
0_O
ignore it.

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
::love my famili:my frens:my fadz::
PS:find ur own happinesss!!!..msg to ppl who cnt do so please dun come hooging othr ppls happiness!!!

2006-08-10T14:59:00.000+08:00

happy burfday singapore!!!!!
whoooo..its national day tdy..hahaha..41 yrs old sehhh spore..hahahaa...im gooinnggg nutssss...kk..anywaysss..tdy..i LOVE!!!tnks to him..wheeee~~~

but b4 tht..
yestrdy was contiridictin of tdy.totalii.my OP suxed!!god!!it was horiiblee..one of the worse..i failed..hahaha..nice rty.wtf..nvrminddd.den got hiccups...hiazzz..but went to wcth the firewrks at esplanade ystrdy.din go wif fadz tho.i went wif cuzyy..woossshhh..the firewrks display.nvr fail to make me smile.guess it made my day a lil.but the last few mins of the firewrks was lyk wooo!!it was soo bueatyful tht i couldnt take it anymoree..lyk the wlh show had a story behind it and tht the ending was just nice.it was as perfect as it seems.and maybee tis is just the EMO side of me..but to witness such a bueaty at such a tym wen ure sad.it just caused me to hv tears in my eye.but it din flow out ok...ok enuf..i kno im emotional..hahaha..so the day ended latr and i selpt at 3 plus aftr finisshing my chat wif fadz.love him to the core.

tdy..i woke up at 10 plus,was dragged out of bed by mama.haaa.cleaned the mess of my room,mop the floor and got ready to go out.tdy i went out wif fadz gang.they had an invitation for a gathering.meet most of them for the first tym today.i was just smilling and shuuting up.durrrhh.paisehh mahh..first tym meet.*blushblush* but i certainlii did enjoy myslf wif them.its eithr im laughing wif them or at them..hahahazz..they are nice ppl.haha.den frm hougang,the gang took soooooo long to decide where they are going to head to and finaallii ard 6 plus i and fadz decided to go hm.we took 161 and he sent me hm.hehe..enjoyed the tym in the bus.den he stped ovr and watchd spre idol and then we sat at the balcony.just the 2 of us wif the guitar.wheeee..he sang a new song ,but the lyrics were all made up just now.but trust me.it was moving.just love it.heeee.den i sent him off to the bus stp.and now i have to go bath..hahaaa.will be talkin to fadz later i hope.wheeee~love lembuuu!!oh yar tml..no schl!!!wheeeee~~

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
::1 of the best national tis yr::
::because i was wif u::
::just u and me::

2006-08-08T00:57:00.000+08:00

at school now..whoossshh..just finished my portfolio..haha..used fadz file ferst b4 actualli buyin my own..hahaha..tml is my presentation day..and honestlii..im not prepared for the big day..whoossshhh..i wonder how tml will bee..hahazz..
ermmm..wondering and pondering..hahaz.tml fad will be out wif his frens..hahakzz.hope tht he enjoys himself .and happy burfday to his classmate ..errmmm..evonne? ryt or not the speeling..hahaz..wheeee~
national day is aso coming..now im wondering..cn i actuallli get LAST min tix for national day..dran..i wanna go and watch my fav part of the shw..fireworkz..wheee
now i tink i shld go give mr pok my portfolio.haizzz.drad.

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg

2006-08-06T06:23:00.000+08:00

daysss have past sooryy lar nve update..haha..been bz..spent alot of tym wif daeriee tis week..and guess wad..we din had any minor or major bearkdwn tis whl week.cool huh.but othr thn tht we did have alot alot alot of othr tings tht came in my way wif his.lyk we cnt meet up tody and "sweety" in his blog..hu sia?haha..othr thn tht i tinks its ok..coz i love love love him..

so tdy im going out for putri's burfday later at macdonals dunnno where lorks..herrmmm..den myt not be cumin hm tonite.maybe spending the nite at kakak noor hse..wooohhooossssss..tml got kenduri cum open hse ther..must prepare script and port folio by monday..presentation up nxt on tuesday..cnt wait for tht..hahx..

asides all tisss....
tis is for sumone special.

im soory for tht tdy jus had to happen.i kno ure upset tht we cnt meet tdy but i promise tht i'd make it up to u.tym passed tht fast tht anothr mnth is put behind us..hahaa..but wen u look at it agn its oni been tht much tym tht i was there with u and u here beside me.many tings happened frm the best to the worst.tnks for standing by me all the tym and not letting go.i love havin u by my side.love the smile on ur face.love the lame jokes u make.love the way u just pamper me.love the way u make me feel special.i cn nvr thnk u enuf.im just glad tht for havin tht one someone tht ive always wantd.and tht sumone is u.
happy 3 mths my dear..with u im sure tht we'd go far..tnks for the new song and the blogg entry plus for this picture u post in ur blog...i love it as much as i love u.

::u made me special.tnk u.::
::ur my happiness:my love:my lfy::

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg

2006-07-30T13:35:00.000+08:00

there many ting to say!!!!!
many tank eiiusss to people..
many story to tell

ferstlyyyyy...
weeeweeettt....3 cheers for the bytches and myselff..whheeee~we got thru the drama auditions..hahahhaa..3 wishes will be shown on 14 september..megas lunaa.. weeeweeettt...
tnks to the peeps...lyk myslf..whooo.no shame lorx..hahaha..seriouzly..ferstly hid..u left out of a sudden.bad.but u still came dwn to supprt us.we o tis to u man.tis is ur wrk.we are making ur dream come true.we will do tis.3 wishes will be a veri nice production by us bytchs.tht a promise.id help fie ard..wheee~~fiee..the at-ferst-unwilling-director-but-became-a-dym-good-one.. 3 cheers for fie.u did gr8.honest..i dun hate u..but i love u.yes it was fun..dym nice queeen lorx.hahhaa..nose held high up.NICE.the cast..hinna,charm,athena & elien u guys were awwwsommeee...gr8 charactr..u all made me proud..whooshhh..the arrogance,the manly-ness, the warmth, the chrippy-nesss..i saw it all in u guyss..whooo..nice job...
oh yeahhhh..tnks the main comm..priya,mato,victor and mas...weeeweettt..tnks for choosing us..whooosshhh.. we will work hard lorr.. love u guysssss...

to my home boyssss..SANJI!!!!!i am dymm proud and happy for uuuuu...soory abt the otr tym...but reallii..congrats on making it through to dragon boat..dyammmm proud of u..tnks for calling us all to congratulate us..i love u sanji!!!!!.. ABANG!!!!saba..tnks lor for everythingg..yeahh blaming me agn for fighting..hahaha...abg is cuteee lorkkss... ANDREW & TWINNIEE kenneth..hahaha..u guys just makes me laugh...all the tym..tnks for being concern abt us all..and all of u guys we are as proud of u guys as u guys r proud of us..i love u all

kannan..whooshhh..must tnk u aso for msg me abt wad lve is and tagging my blog abt it...it is wen u say i love u..tnks for being my there at some tyms wen i was dwn..alot of tyms rty?hahaa..tnkx..love u.

alyah..tnks soo much for being concern abt me and stuff..u hv to take care of urslf k...and raz too..u guys better take care of ech othr

azreen..my pet sys frm anthr countryy..my goshh..no more chatting wif u??hw..we will meet one day wen i go kl or u come here ok???love u crazeee butt....tnks for listening to my probs and stuff lyk tht..will miss u azreeennn!!!

secondary fensssssss....missiing them to the bitss lehhhh!!!!omg...im soory guys..tnks for understndingg....esp acap..miss u guysss...love all of u guyssssss....soorryyy..wait for my holidays kk??

a big love for my family..i myt not kno hw to express my love for them but i do love them all..haizzzzzz...love em all..hahax..tnks sys for ystrday...heaRts u loads..and pls get it right wif u and dee lor...soryyy to my mommy and dadyy..love em to bits..my annoying bross..love em all..

RAINBOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i din mention ur name earlier coz i wanna tnk u soo muchh..idiot..dun cry for mee...my god rainbow..tnks for always being there for me.we made ech othr strong.even if we dnt say it i kno we **** ech othrr..hahah.idiot lar u..u kno u are one of the pillars of my strength..u are one of the tings i look forward in schl.u will gt wad u wished for.love will come one day. tnks for beliving in me and fadz..u are stong gurl..rmbr dun pretend anymore..my bus partner, rainbow club president and fellow member of begger's club.wheeeee...ure gr8 as heisah..she is so u..u rwwwwkkk!!!

lastlyyy..to yeahh...himm..he cameee..gave me feelings and emotions i've nvr felt b4..frm pain to happiness to love.wad more cn he give me?hahaha..i jus dun wish to let him go or loose him for tht matter..wen i say i love him i mean it.been tru alot wif him.alot.and i'll nvr wanna see us part..not onli me but many ppl nvr wanna see us part.and tis i kno..i love him.my savior in lyf..tnks fadz for being in tis part of my lyf..i love u..till the end..and i dun hv to tell u tht..and i'd be lost wifout u..love u!!FADZLEY...nvr let me go

to othrs who were concern and stuff..tnks soo muchh..and im missing alot of ppl nowww...gollyy...i miss u guysssss!!!

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg..
boogeyymann...tnks for making me soo curious..haizzzz

2006-07-28T14:42:00.000+08:00

weelll..my week so far has been hectic..had captain ball..wheeee...my the bos were dymm pro lorx..esp abg and dreww..win and sanji is good too lorks...hinna dym powerr..cheriee nvr gave up..su wie..wow d bomb ..cute sia she..yueh wan..whheeeeweeet..speed huh?dym good..kannan..wheeeweet..tnks to u lorkksss for tis opportunity...yeahhhhhhh..even if we lost peeps..we're dymm good lorksss...hahhaha..love u guyssss...u guys played dyammm welll...

errrmmmm...
song in my head
lonely september-plain white t

"i din mean for tis to go as far as it did
i din mean to get so close and share wat we did
i din mean to fall in love but i did
and u din mean to love me bck
but i kno u did"...

heheee..
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well..have u ever been madly in love wif sumone tht the thought of them leaving u just scares u dymm muchh..ever been soo in love wif sumone tht life changes so much since ure wif them..ever wished tht all u cn do is to make tht sumone happy..ever prayed for the person u love that u just forgot about prayers for urself..ever waited for the person u love yet find it all worthy just by seein his/her face later on..ever broke the rules just so to be wif the person u love..ever found it hard wenever there's a fight between u..ever dreamt of how life would be terrible w/o them..
LOVE...a fren of mine asked me wad love means today.another just asked hw it felt lyk to be in love.haizzz..love..a 4 letter word but the meaning is dymm complex.love is nvr easy yet he oways say its not tht hard too.maybe ppl made it hrd.well..i said being in love is lyk......i dunoooo..i jus love..thts all i know..all i know is tht i love him..and if thts wrng..lemme be wrng...becoz i do love himmm....

fadzley...i reallii do love u...

so till den..
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg

2006-07-26T14:33:00.000+08:00

wheeee...~~~at lasttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im done wif my POM presentation..i look lyk shit tdy...omg..i hate what i was wearing lorss...hahahhaa..idiot...wheeee...
okkkk..no moreeeeeee of tht...hahaha..one more gr8ed presentation and all i hv left is my sem test...haaiiizzzzz.......
okkk..gt tis boogeymannn....who he hell u are?plz tell me!!!!

wadeva larr

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
loveeeee lembuuuuuuuuuu

2006-07-24T13:22:00.000+08:00

update...
wheee...lets strt wif my msn message.."i love what is goin on between you and me"...
ok..the last tym i updated was i tink ages agooo..wheee..been bz..lyk realli bz..well the end of tis week marked the end of alot of things for me..end of pom reprt.filming.outline and summary of case.ishhh.this one i must thankk my 2 lovely babes in schl..RAINBOW AND HINNA!!!tnks for helpping me..love u guys..o u guys one big oneee...
kk..
ermm..i spent my weekends realli nicee tis weekk..ystrdy..had my cramps and was dymm tired..hahah..but i had visitorss.wheeee..so yesterday dear, raz and rainbow came ovr..wheee..watched kal ho na ho..rainbow couldnt stp cryinggg....wheee..den we ate..and dear fixed my guitar up and we had a sing-a-log session.wheee..day was really really realxed..haizz...den aftr tht had a battel wif dear..my god lor..he arghh...unfair sia...hahaha..but ok..fun fun fun..laugh laugh laugh...den raz had to go home..sent dear and raz off and rainbw decided tht she wanna sty hm wen i sent tem coz she wanted to recrd the kal ho nah ho song...wheee..then i went hm and sent her off and ltr chat wif dear..ended the day..relaxed kinndaaa day..plus i enjoyed myslef wif my visitors...hahaha..tnks guys for cuming ovr..sorrii couldnt do muchh at hmm..

public appologiesss to this ppls..
fie and hid..sorrii couldnt make it for ur agm..couldnt wake upp..had spins in the moriningg
carolynn..soorryy din go to jb wif u and ur bf...hahaha..nxt tym kk...
acapp and idaaa..im sooo ssooooo soorrryyy i din make it for the gig...k..ermmm..i miss u guyss..plz ..im so sorryyy...love u guyss....

hahah..so yeahhh..thts tht...

tdy was double fun.went to the zoo in the mrning..omg..i was dymm xcited lor wen i saw the sun bears and polar bears...feel lyk hugging them lorr..ishhh..daymm cute lorrr..got see monkeys and org utan cutee....hahzz..thn i saw a horse carriagee..i wanna ridee..$8...arggghhh nice u kno..ishh..then i patted a horsey at the childern zoo..cut..saw dear friends the cow famili...hahahhaaa...the best of all was seeing OMAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i LOVE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...omg...my darling omar..my lovely white tigerr...hiazzeddd.....love himm..hiazzzzz........soo dymmmmm cuteeeeeee....haaiizzzz...ok..i shall stp..hahahaa..dear was jealous bcoz of omar..hahahaha..okok..den aftr tht wen ovr to granny's and slept there..den now bck at hm...whheeeeeeee~~

end of the dayyy...
ending tis post wis tis again.."i love what is going on between you and me"...

so till den
wif loads of love
fima darlinGg...
dear...u still o me the 2 para

2006-07-20T14:17:00.000+08:00

update! update!
omigod..so long since this blog is filled wif emotionsss...
kk..lyf has been hard so far..lyk really hard..the week had been an emotional ride.problem aft problem.well guess settled most of it oreadi.wif my famili, friends and fadz too..
so actuallii lyf up to there..guess im ok wif my parents aftr a talk..and yerp basically talked to fadz too...settled our differences and yarh..u kno the funny thing abt me and dearie is tht our fear tht we have for ech othr is the same.the feelings are all the same.but we bth do things tht sumtyms just dnt shw hw we feel.werid huh?ironic i shall say.

really beat tire nw.dunno wad to say.

all i kno is tht i love my famili, my friends (all of them) and my fadz..

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darling..
update aftr so long

2006-07-12T01:45:00.000+08:00

wonders of this heart..

have u ever been in a situation when everything just seems so wrong.like the world itself was against you.my life hasnt been any different from anyone.faced with many emotions, many fear yet on top of that all love.fate brought to me what i've always wanted but tears me away from what was in my hands.a young girl growing up in this world.i need to breathe my own air.take charge of this very life of mine.but how?but when?life offers so much that even the vocab i have just isnt enough to describe the emotions playing in me.happy yet sad.joyful yet sorrow.blissed and blessed with what i have,a smile that i forge upon my face,this all just wouldnt do.this all just isnt enough.life gave me yet again sorrow and pain.life gave me yet again confusion and anger.the light that shines as bright as the sun suddenly seems dimmer than the flame lit in that candle.i need time to find myself again.away from this world.away from this pain.just hold on to me just like you used to.just give me time to be that self again.

there..the wonders of this heart
now sitting down beside rainbow in lab..doin my csa project..meeting fadz for lunch later..having a test aftr..classes again.than straight home.

thnks rainbow and fadz for all that..for everything

so till den
with loads of hearts
fima darlinGg

2006-07-10T13:31:00.000+08:00

Who's Your Type?

Nurul, you're an Artiste!

Your type is the Artiste
Creative. Sensitive. A bit off beat. Your type is the Artiste, a unique guy who knows how to express himself in many ways, whether it's through words,music, or attire. You're attracted to his unconventional ways and his remarkable talents. He doesn't feel compelled to abide by society's norms.He believes that individuality is the key to happiness, and everything he does is a reflection of his "inner self." You fall head-over-heels for such confidence and style. Whether he's playing a song he wrote for just you or writing you a love letter, this guy knows how to make you feel special. He's in touch with his feminine side and doesn't need to assert his masculinityto feel manly. If we were to paint a picture of your future, the Artiste would definitely be part of it!

wheee...snd lyk fadz???yearpppsss...actuallii it doess...wheeeee~guess i've found wad ive wanted and needed..wheee

so tody went to granny's..played games..enjoyed..wheee~

so till den for my entry
missing him..my artiste...wheee

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg

2006-07-09T12:56:00.000+08:00

counting stars by sugarcult

heyy..
i wanna crawl out of my skin
appologize for all my sins
all the things i should hv said to uu.
heyy..
i cnt make it go awy
over and over in my brain agn
all the things i should hv said to u

counting stars whishin i was ok
crashing dwn tht was my baddest mistake
i nvr ever meant to hurt u
i only did wad i had too
counting stars agn

heyy..
i'd take tis day by day by day
under the covers im ok i guess
lyf too shrt and i feel small

counting stars whishin i was ok
crashing dwn tht was my baddest mistake
i nvr ever meant to hurt u
i only did wad i had too
counting stars agn

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tdy ..hw do i even strt.woke up early..spent hrs in the toilet.wtch tv.slept.wen out wif mama,kakak,ifu and dee..i just got hm..im hving abit of hypervents..finding hard to breath...HELP!!!!!!!!!!!suffered the whl day wif a spining head..nw tis..omg...

okk...
im realli wishing im okkk..haiz..the day the day...ermm...close to bad..maybe bad...i dunnoo...arhhhgggg...im useless larr...

shissshhhhh...

my wrds as shrp as a blade.
my actions even worse of tht.
i hope this prt of me will fade.
bcz its just so dym bad.

arhhhggghhhhhhhhh...
i dunno wad to sayyyy

so till den..
wif u oways
fima
....dinmeantohurtyou....iloveyouandonlyou....

2006-07-08T15:42:00.000+08:00

ferstlyy..go wif me on this onee...

* indian man:xcuse me.where did u buy ur sandwich?

me: ermmm..7-11.(obviously-its 10 plus and the only shp tht sells tis is 7-11)

indian man:wad falour is it?(so i thought he was a nt frm spore)

me:turkey chicken ham...(spaced out)

indian man:is it still open?

me:yes..(durhhh..i just walked out of the shp rty??)

indian man:(turned to his fren and smiled den bck at me) ok tnks.

me:welcum

indian man:i lyk ur hair.really look nice(hands doing some actions on his head)

me:..ermmm..tnkx..(walked off)*

ishh..luckyy i was wif rainbw and pikaa..if they not there i aso dunno siaa wad to doo..hahah..lucky we cn walk off together,,aiyoohh..lyk all the qns he ask me den jus to say he lyk my hair?lyk asking daymm obvious qns..hahahhaa..shityyy..but wadever lar...

so tdy was long and whinny for me..i dunnooo..i had spins the whl day ony a few intervals here and there where it stp.so went for lecture ..lecture was boring at ferst denn wen i chnge placed..it became more fun..hahah..was half awke onii..hahah..mux tnkz kenneth for making my lecture funn..hahha..
and din manage to finish csa tdy..went to itas had luch wif my peeps at one table and i and fadz at the othr tabl.den went to do project agn.den meet up for some fliming stuff den went for dt. drama was fun and w planned on our megus luna..3 whishes..thts our tittle..so cnt wait for the whl thinggy..

so yeahh..
till den
wif loadz of hearts
fima darlinGg
head's spinningg...ouchhh..love my babeess !!

2006-07-07T13:01:00.000+08:00

Happy 2 mths deariieee~wheeeee
yesterdyy was my 2 mthssss..wheeee...love daeriee to the end.
ferstlyy...as u said tym flies when im wif u..we've faced many things.ups and dwns .happyness and fights. but we still have a long way to go. tis is just the begining of everyting. i love u. tnks for being who u are in my lyf. suddenly u made me complete. wheeee...lyk i really dunno hw to describe the feeling of mine nw.lost iwf wrd.hahhaa..spechless.the guy who cn leave me speachless and feel foolish is the same guy who brighten up my life and painted it wif colours.wheeeeee~

our 2 mtns was celebrate nt veri bigly..yarlar oni 2 mths..haha..he surprised me a lil..he gave me this ..

so tis is suppose to be a big crd..but it ende up lyk one peice..hahaha..nice..sweet lar fadzleyy
hahahaa..dear.sorry abt the TER-pijak stuff..reallii din kno..hahha..
so yrpss...so much sweetness.den he sang me the 2 sngs he wrote for me..whee..he wif the guitar and all.everyone see..omg.den i gave him my presy for him..haha..a lame latter..but ok larr..haha..alyah and raz saw the whl thing unfld wif us..wheeee...love deariee..den dearie sent me hm ..otw hm we talked alot..well we usually tlk alot.hahah..but he really made me think abt the aftr lyf.sumting i kno tht im not ready yet..looosing the ppl u love..ur famili ur frens ur lover..i dunnoo..i cnt ..esp wen i tink of all of em..im not ready yett..so deariee lets not talk abt tht k..im scrd.hahahah..love u..

so tdy..was forced to wake up early.haha..so went to schl alone thn saw maria at the intrchange so went up to 168 wif her..den..we saw a mad man..wheee..scry..lyk talking to himslf abt ..telling a boy name krisna not to trust "tht gurl"..saying u wnt have sons..den suddenlii..he cn hear me and maria whispering den he lyk said its ok if u wanna turn bckk and look..coz i was whispering to maria i feel lyk turning bck and looking at him..omg..u kno..he was the the bck and me and maria was lyk at the cntr of the bus..we were lyk freaking out...hahahs..denhe alighte.lucky.but funny thing..hw do this ppl kno wad they're doing and stuff wen at the same tym they are insane??
so then i went for lecture.abit late.haha.lucky pom.erm.den went itas wif hinna and hid.love them.heee.rainbw was late.din cum for lecture..so yaerps..they ate but i din coz was lyk saving my appitite for my lunch date..wheeee~so thn went to class..
so aft lsm lesson.meet deariee.ate wif him..than walk all the way to tamp mrt.dear was lyk u go hm earlie today k? den i was lyk..a'ahh ok..haiyohh..lyk moommy lyk tht..hahaha..so den he sent me to the bus stp.haha.. we talk2 abt alot of crapp..hahaha..lyk princess and the crab..haha..oni sumting thts meant for me and dearie to kno..hahaha..he made my day tdy.wheeee..tnks deariee..love u..

so till den..
wif loads of heartssss
fima darlinGg~~~
ps:: the guy tht jus makesss my dayy...

love him~~~

2006-07-03T13:46:00.000+08:00

heheeeeee..ive beedn tagged by mel~
i've been doing soo much of thissss..omg..shld stp tagging me kkk..
but ok.it kills my bordem.hahahahha

5 snacks I enjoy
* ferreroo ...the besssssstttttt....
* kinder buennooo... crunchhyyyyyy
*tronkkyyy....niceeee
*chipss...potato chipss
*any thing sweett for my tastebuds..esp chocolatessss

5 songs I know the lyrics to
*for u i'll make a song-dearie
*tis i promise u(i tink)-dearie
*unfaithful-rihana
*counting stars-sugarcult
*my only one-plain white T's....

got loads moreee..hahaha..but nvrmindd

5 things I would do with 100 million
*shooppinngggg...hp.clothes.shoes.clothes.and stuff.more
*givee mommy and daddy someeee
*buy sumting for the whl familiii...Wheeee~
*go on a holiday ard the wrld
*save for rainny dayss..if gt xtra..hahah..but i tink i'd finish it

5 places I would run away to
*my room..the cozy placeee
*to my familiii..
*to my frensss..
*to my fadzzz..
*to where the heart bring me..maybe a swing in a nearby playgrd

5 things I would never wear
*mini skirts..hahah..ugly larr if i wearr
*tube top wif nuting on top of it.too obsene for me...heee
*hawaii thinngyyy tht tey wear on the beach
*bikini..no body mahh..haha
*thing tht im not comfortable in...not my fashion.

5 bad habits
*biting.
*shouting.
*loosssing my temper.
*hiitnng anyone ard.esp fadz.haaa
*ouhh..*nkwjYCHG*...callin ppl names.

5 biggest joys!
*familliii.duhhh
*frensss.all..all my truest frenns.too much to name
*fadzleyy.aggrrhh.happiness
*CHOCOLATEEeeeee.eeeeeee.obviouslyyy
*winniee theee poooohhhhh.heeee.cutieeee

5 fictional characters I'd date
*harry porttteeerrrrrr...my so lovely dream partner
*spydrmannnn..whhheeeee..i tink oredy am.haha
*spongebobbb...he'll make me laugh..tt for suree
*ice mann fm xmen..wheee..love his eyess..
*the guy frm full housee..so cuteeee...

5 unfortunate individuals to do this
*fadz..hahaha
*kakak...u better do tisss
*nadira..do it kkk?
*reeenaaa...yeahhh..
*anyone who feels lykkk doing kk..

do it..wheeee~everyone must do it..i did it oreadiii..wheeee~~~~

so thereeee..done...
byeeeeeeee

2006-07-03T09:26:00.000+08:00

atieee..idiot sister ask to to sumtng agn.she keeps taggin ppl lar.tink i so free isit.ishh..

kk..here goes..

3 schools i went to: chua chu kang pri, fajar secondary, temasek poly

3 things in my handbag: wheee..handbag?..just bag ok..erm..wallets(gt 2-undecided which to use so yah).handphone.home key

3 things i do when im stress: eat CHOCOLATE.cry.screeeeeaaaammmmm.arrrrgggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

3 places i go on a daily basis: bedroom.toilet.the internet-is tis considered a place??haha

3 fav fruits: ouuhhlala..ermm.durian.mango.strwberries.got alot more lar.lyk apple.dragonfruit.watermelon.honeydew..ok i tink i shld stp.im lyk soo craving for any one now..

3 names i go by:ouhh..i hv the mst number of nickname in my famili.heee..okk top 3 will be.. fima(duhh..since yng and the most one).fahimah(obviouslyy).fifi(poly frens gave it to me.nw in tp in known as fifi.hahkx)

3 of my fav food: black pepper crab!!!!!!!!arghhhh..long tym no eattt...eeeeeeee...chicken chop..heee..and and..ermm..mommys cooking is always the bestt..wheeeee~

3 things im wearing now: t shirt.pants.bracelet given by deariee

who is in the house with me? all my famili xcpt my sis.idiot lar she go out nvr tell.suppose to go out tgthr ryt.i aso idiot go sleep.idiot lar.all idiot lar.

who am i thinking of ? haha..haha..my msn nick " ~lalalalalal~im going nutsss thinking of daeriieeee."..does this xpalain?

who did i last talk to on the phone with?mak.she called wanting to talk to mama.

who did i sit with during the 5th period in class? hahaha.5th period.no such thing in tp.

who was the last person i uttered love to? lemmee be veri blod and cheesseey bout tis.FADZLEY.duhh.love him

who gets on my nerves in schools? hahaha..all thoes PRETENDERS in schl.hate em.ish

where is my phone? ryt here in frnt of me...wheeee~

where do i sleep? on my bed.wheee..wif 2 pillows, 1 cushion, my cutie winne the pooh and my precious rose.hahz

where is the place i took a ride to? ermmmm.home?

what was the last thing i ate? some desrt tht cik nora thought my mom hw to do..nice larr..i like

what colour shirt am i wearing now? BLACK

what is the closest thing to me that is blue? mee pantss...haha

what do i like most about school? the 7 of us in schl.wheee.the drama every week.whaarrrr.the prt where i gt to meet himm.ouuhh.

what is my favourite colour? yellow.blck.red.

what do i wear most often jeans or shorts? ermms.shorts at hm, jeans outside.so balanced?

what was the last movie i watched? dunnoo.a long tym ago lar.last mth or so.wananannaaaa wtch moviee.!!lets go!!

when did i start school? errrmmm ..13 yrs ago i tinkk??

when did i last go to the mall? ermmmm..just went far east ystrday..hahaha..last friday was tm..haha

when did i last burn something? i dunnoo..ermmm..i tink i've nvr burnt anyting.ouhh wait i hv.wen tym cooking and ironing.hahaha

3 blogers to do this: FADZLEY..hahaha..ermm melissa.phifiee..wheeee..better do arghh u all..i kno gt alot.but i dun care.wheeee

errrmm k..ystrdy went to orchard wif my familiy..den go moomy hse..wtch soccr!!!!!!
i swear i cld cry wen i saw bechkam's face.i cnt belive it.why why.england is out.arrggggg..i hate chirs.ronaldo...he lyk wad sia.over acting oni.aghhrrr..i knw it wld be penalty shoot out.and engld.penalty.they juz dun go..ouch.aiiyoohh..nvrmind.they are still the champs in my heart.hahahahah.on a better note..BRAZIL IS OUT!!!! arrrhhh..all thoes who kept boasting tht brazil will win and england loooseee...*ashhhrhrrrrhjyda whgajdhuy*!!!!!!good for u..wakakakakakkakaka*fima's eveil laugh!!!!!*now im rooting for FRANCE!and portugal cn go die!!!

tdy was suppose to go out.dnt remind me.arhhh.esp tht idiot sistr..ahhahaha.she cum bck she kene..blueeekk.hahaha*evil laugh agn*

okkkkk..i tinks tht alll for nowww..wheeeeee~

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
ps: missssssiiiinnnngggggghiiiiimmmmllloooaddssss

2006-07-01T16:24:00.000+08:00

PROJECT!
the thing tht all mst got me in bad mood tdy~~haha.csa.still undone.oni abit more to goo.actaullii.alot.wheeee~pandai arg fima ehh!haha
well.tdy~
i lyk i lyk.
rainbw.hinna.me.look diff all.haa.nice.love walking in style.meeet rainbw.did project.meet hinna.saw him.whee.happy.den did project.joseph.tnks.den went to see the guys a while-trust me its oni lyk ent to meet them den hi-bye den tlk abit then went off.den went tm.actuali wanted to meet him but din.so.yeh.at tm.hinna darling gave a personal letter for me and rainbow.omg.i love tht babe.gt tears abit lar.omg.stronger bonds.love them all.all.dennn.got core grp.dramaaaaaa.hw cn i not absolute love tdy?its drama day.wheeee.but we din do much.wtch lst yr megus or megas(?) luna.haha.my spelling.(u shld kno lar.)nicee lar.make me feel lyk doing a monolouge(ryt spelling nt?).erm.but dunno wad to do yet.theme.fairy tale.whee.i lyk.i wanna be princess.tt i am oways.princess fima.wheee.darlz i wan.haha.okk.on a more seriouz note.they wanna do a combine thingy.realli dunno lar wad to do.by nxt week mus cum out wif rough idea.wheee.cn lar.make me tink abt my "who wanna be a princess".presenting princess fima aka the libary princess.wheeee.ok.gt sub-comm selection aso.tht one.i hv my eyes on them a lng tym ago.ish.i really really wan it.hahaz.must lt ppl see lar tht im responsible.haa.sub-comm.here i cum.princess fimaa all the way to grb a tittle.bt alot going to be out there to chasee the postion.wheee.but a leader is nt just a position.its wad u do.so i wanna strivee.cn u leemee shine?*eeee*

dearriee nw in schl.aiyohh.kinndaa miss spendin tym wif him.lyk quality tym.haizzz.dunno lar who he missing dun wanna say.hahaha.we din realli talk tody.aiiyooohhhh.sad lar.cn or nt if i talk to him all the tym and steal all his tym frm him.hahaha.no larr.haha..need to spend tym.arggghhh.lyk mad larr.

oh yeh.for my big bro sanji.dun woorryyy k.and dun be so sad.share wif me k ur probs.*eeee*smile oways.

so yeahh.till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg.~
ps:me wannnaaaaa hug.but nvr got.blleerrrggggghhhh.*shighs*

2006-06-30T15:44:00.000+08:00

i kept readin my june 27 post.love tht.
tagg repliessss..aftr so longg

K: HI fifi... like your JUNE 17th post. very insightful. Very true. Look after yourself.. YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL!!!
fmaaaa:tnkzzz K.ure beautiful tooo.haha.just my thought wonderingg ard

mel: hey fima...contact me when free ok? got things to tell eu...=)
fimaaa:hahaha..okkk...

luluuuu =): nie apasal nie uh? buat tenang ahrr..majok jerr..
fimaaa:well.wad to do.gt ups and dwns.was down.now i guess okk

the guys: hey..will u ever talk to us again? we know we're wrong and we apologise.. We're sorri.. pls.. forgive us..
fimaaa:i kno ur sorryy..apology accepted.hahah.love u bros.

Nadira: *screams* FIMAAAAAA!!! hehehe... *hops about* take care.. *waves and somersaults*
fimaaa:*screams*..NAD!!!!!!!!hehee..kinndaa miss production.dnt u.*waves back and do jumping jets*hahaha..need too losse weight mahh!

fahmi: ...1.why did u post it 3 times? 2.after readinf thrice, i still dont understand! 3.cheer up! there's always a next time!!!
fimaaa:cuzzyyy..haha.1.schl comp siao. 2.its a secret i wnt tell u. 3.im better now.tnkz for the concern.wheee~

eelo: Hey babe..i dun really understand ur post..but cheer up aight! U seem angry..dun be aight! Love u!
fimaaa:hey babe.haha.im fine now.tnkz babe.miss u load.love u.wen to take certtt???

mel: hey...know u are feeling down...coz u are writing poems again...cheer up ok? no matter wat i'll be here for eu!!! *show tt wonderful smile* love eu!!!
fimaaa:heyy.i kno u feel dwn too.gd luck ok.poems?isnt it gooddd tht i wyt?hahaha..love u too..*shw a verii lovable smile*..EEEEEeeee

kannan: daddy black? wat a name!!!! haiz trust rainbow to come up wif such stuff.
fimaaa:kannan!!!well.rainbow .wad u xpect.hahaha.tnkx kannan..

seriouzly.i din kno i have repely tagss in a while.wheeee~

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg~
tdy boring dayyy.
i mean ysrtdy.

2006-06-29T15:10:00.000+08:00

smiles and laughter.tears and cries.lyfs a roller coaster ride.either u hang on to it and nvr give up or u just let it go and die dwn.tis is ur lyf.u take cntrl of it no one eles.gt on ur feet bck up and shw the wrd wad ur made off.

so tdy..

smiles.at ferst wasnt larr.haizz.

many ppl made up the losses tdy.love it.

hinna and rainbw.difference put aside.love ech of them.

the guys.gt to hang out agn.at last.smiles and laughtr.love them all.

the peeps who were thr all alng.tnks.sisterr.kannan.hid.mel.eelo.fahmy 2?love all of u.

fadzley.u jus make me go crazee.ok met by chance at ferst.den we plannd to meet.go eat.went to changi airport.then he snt me hm.so.yeah.we cleared up.love love love love love him.

*just for him*
hiazzz.u kno nw wads in my heart.u kno nw wad i wan.im sorry for wad happened.sharing is wad we'll do now.haaa.i need u moree too now.i need u soo much.wad the future holds for us,rmbr ur promise to me.and yes u kno it too.no matter wad happens.kno tht i love u.tnks.

so till den.
wif loads of hertsss
fima darlinGg.
ps:...at last a better dayyyyy...

2006-06-28T13:27:00.000+08:00

I have to sayy..so just leemme pour my hearts put.ingnore tis pst if u must.
Ok.tnks for thee cheer -ups.really appreciate it.tnkz guyss.orryttt..my post for now
Soryy abt the mixed up abt the blog just nw.was at schl free lab.haaa.and yahh..the comp gt prob I tinkk..so yeah....
Lyf lyf lyf ...sux sux sux.tis has got to be lyk ab bad week for me or sumting.lyk im dwn at the bottom of my roller coster life. dwn dwn dwn.well guess wad?im tired of it. I wanna step up agn.feel the brezzeee agn.will I? wads stping me? Wads bothering me? I dunno.I just dun.not tht I cnt LOVE.trust me I cn.I cnt shw it.lyk really.maybe as I said b4 I cnt express myself.
Well..boys...I love u all.yesh…yes I will talk to u..its hardd..it just EGO.I love u guys.and I do wanna talk to u guys..heeeee....just either gimme tym or keep trying harder..hahaha.....look..the one ting I love is an apology ryt to my face.so say it ok? infrnt of hinna and wan wan to.love u guys. My big bro sanji, abg sabar, twinnie Kenneth and small bro, Andrew..ok.....tym .jus a lil more....cn..love u guys..tnks for tagginggg..u guys o me chocolateee....

Ryt..now..sharing feeling tyms aiteee...

See.theres tis gurl .happy wif wad she has.loving everyitng.but then her head just wldnt rest wen her heart oredii did.happiness nvr easily comes her way u see.....so wen it comes thre's juz,a lil ting in her mind whisper..shld u hv tis happiness.....actions she has tht dnt refeclt her thoughts.ego she has tt dun shw her heart.temper he as tht dnt shw her love.see mayb sumting is wrng wif her.insanity.ppl say shes paranoid.tht she really is.
So tis lil gurl tried to change. for her lover, she brush awy the lil thought. For her heart, she brush awy the fear. but her temper, she kept. becoz tis is who she is, who she was and who she'll be. And for once aftr her change, shes angry becoz of her temper, becoz wad pissed her off .it myt be a lil too late.her lover oredii too tired of her paranoid behavior to tired to see her temper agn.
Broken into millions she sits alone.nt knowing if her smile is real.nt knoing abt the truth within. She prays to god to set her free.nt to let the "devil" inside breathe. She prays to god tht she wasn't tis way.whishing tht wad happened cld be erased.hopping tht the light wld come shining in agn. But she kno shes too much..always asking for more.always hoping to sore. No one hears her prayers. Her heart pounding soo hard. No one cares. her lyf so unfair.so she ask herself, if I were to die tonight, will any one notice tml??..if I diee tonite.will anyone bother ?will her lover be there too see her.will he hv tears in his eyes.
Tdy her lover said he's tired.he use to say he wnt be.tdy her lover questioned her love.he nvr does tht b4.tdy she shall say wad she wans to and need to.she just hv too.coz she loves him so much tt shes dying inside now. So the lil girl said in heart.....

To who ever who care,pls kno tht I love him.tht I hurt him a lot.yes I do.but pls dun take him awy frm me.help me make him smile coz tht brightens my wrld.help me pray for him so he cn be happy oways.help me tell him tht I wan him happy.
To him, u kno I tld u tis b4.to love u is the hardest thig to do and yet I do becze if its wrng lemme be wrng.if its hard lemme suffer.I kno re hurting too.just lyk me.I dun wan u to be tis way.I wan u happy.I love u.love u love u.more thn anyting.I jus wan u to be happy now. Plz.listen to ur heart and wad it has to say.
To me, I will be ok. I kno I will. i love him and i always will.

so the lil girl went awy.she ended her stry.love her lover she oways will.

so till den

wif the lil gurl

fima darlinGg

PS: i love my homiessssssss

2006-06-28T05:19:00.000+08:00

no u dinnnn...seee....but wadevr ryt.u sld have msged her or so.she in my class u kno.why din u ask her?so hard isit?.its nt tht simple as u tink it is.u din make any atempt at all.blame it on my stupid luck den coz of my stupid fon.blame it on me.yesahh..maybe i was wrg but i nvr saw itst.
stop.rewind.play.
if lyfs tht simple

evenifidietoniteitwldbotheranyone.

2006-06-28T02:15:00.000+08:00

wad have u done??honestly.i sream i shout i walk awy.but haven u walked awy too.i dunt wanna tlk abt the past.but there i was at my limit.yet unkonwingly of wad i did,i apologized.u nvr say u nvr tell.hw do u xpect me to undersntd all and u.so now i dun undersntd.so now im stupid.but wad abt u.if u undrstnd it i wldnt be angry.if u analzye, i wldnt scream.how was i suppose to kno abt a dym ting wen u dunt say.yes i was angry.yes i was mad.yes i did try to undrstnd.but it just wasnt clear.wad was ur ferst line wen u pick up my call.tell me.wad hv u said to me wen u ferst saw me.hw shall i try to undrsntd wen u dnt. u keep making it snd lyk as if tht 10 was important.and cld u just leave me a msg to say where were u.waiting for u lyk a crazy person.thinking tht u had forgotten.praying tht u wldnt.streesing myslf up to find u.but where were u all tht tym.cnt a simple msg be sent to ask me to hold on.insted i was in the dark.just sitting there all alone and worried sick.and wen u came.agn u said tht line.i was worried sick and then u mentioned it agn.and i just wanted to end the conversation.then u nvr said anyting wen i wanted to leave.u just walk awy and stnd sumwhere.how was i to kno.u nvr told me.hw do i undrsntd wen u nvr tld me.maybee u shld learn to undrstnd too.wad did u undrstnd?tht i waited for alng tym?is tht all.im not even angry becoz of tht.understnd.any yes i was RUDE!

2006-06-27T15:21:00.000+08:00

listen.ur not listening.i wnted to hear sumting frm u just now.nt wad i've always waited for.undrsntd wat happened.wad i wanna hearr

2006-06-27T14:59:00.000+08:00

i nvr am wen it comes to u.get it in ur head .i just need to hear sumting unsaid.not wad u've posted...

2006-06-27T14:07:00.000+08:00

since i've wanted to post on the weekend.i myt as well do b4 i forgt.
well.basically sat moring wad bad for me but it went on better latr in the evening and at night.so aftr LOADS of thought abt it,mommy finnallii agreeed to go to est coast and lemme spend the day cycling.so actualifadz was suppose to come.but yeah gt complications in the mrning so he din come in the aftrnoon but came ltr in the evening.during complication period~my mom and my sister did sumting behind my bck.yeahh.i aso hv no idea why tey did it.but nvrmind.tnkz to them my evening gt better ltr.so ibu(my auntyy) and famili aso went dwn to est coast and fandee aso cam.kakak soo happyy.at frst i just slacked ard, played crds wif fandee while waiting for my cuzzy to come.wen they came we rent ard 5 bikes i tink total.and rode all the way to bedok jetyy.den half way,kak yan give up.hee.so cute lar she.so den aftr bedok jetyy we actualii had antr destination to go to but i cldnt go coz i was meeting fadz.den meet up wif him.go buy drink den met my mom and aunt.my aunt disturb him.den he took my cuzzy's bicycle.den we rode for a while.den wen we gt bck all of us went to walk quite a distance just to eat.den end of day.enjoyed saturday.
sunday was antr famili gathering.fun fun and fun at west cost tis tym.aunt came dwn noise but in fun kinnda way.played some games and stuff.moommy joined in the games.ibuu aso.so fun fun.strted wif uno.den wlf game.all the way to the eveing.my aunt complain tht all coz haa.no outsider came.so she complain2 gt so much food left and stuff.but day enjoyed.
so tdy was a CONTRAST of these 2 days.yerps.
projectS,summision dates,summision tym,not summiting,new lecturer who doesnt give so much,sick ppl,lost lectures,homewrk pilling up lyk crazee,see 2 sided face of ppl,slcking even wen tm does not allow,no "sorry" frm ppl,ppl who simply are immpatient,ppl who nvr bothers,ppl who are ignorance,saving appittie for nuting.yerpz.and more.
simply bad day.wad do u say wen tis happens?i wanted to enjoy tdy at least for the last part.it just din happen.why?10isthereasonwhy.dun undrstnd??u'll get it.well.i wlk awy frm ALL the situations tdy.simly just walked off.either im too tired to listen,too angry to bother or just too plainly sadd.i xpected more bt my xpectaions is higher thn wad cn be achived.guess main reason is tht im sadd.or shld i say dissapointed.nvr shall i undrsntd wat lies beaneth.but i shall persevere.will u do the same if u have a bad day??

so till den.
wifyieuowys
fima~

2006-06-26T13:48:00.000+08:00

i saw.i read.i lyk.i post.
wheeee~~

Guys. realize that the girl holding onto u..is PERFECT in their own special way.The way she laughs..The way she sleeps..The way she loves you..The way she tries to please you...Always remember that.She can always get up and walk away,getting someone else who can love hermore.For all you know,there is someone out there wooing heralready,but she is rejecting,a maybe perfect love for her..There might also be someone out there..who is willing to love her more than youare lovingher now,fufill her every need and love her asmuch as sheloves you.Understand that.Imagine this, guys.When you are holding her today...and then you cheat on her by huggingand kissing another gal.and then you run back to her...and u do the same....but you see love in her eyes...What do you think?Do you feel the hurt?Can you feel the guilt?She loves you not because you aregood looking,have money,buy her things,make her parents happy,or that you have a car.She loves you for who you are.Your every touch, every word you say,everythingyou do.Guys.Cherish and appreciate your girl.Don't break her fragile heart.She is the only one who can love youthat way.You won't wanna regret letting go of thatspecialgirl you have.For everything she has done for you, theleastyoucan do is to give her unconditional loveas she has given to you.

sweet.?~i know yeshhh

so till den
wif loads of heartsss..
fima darlinGg
ps:will post abt the weekends soon.wheeee
loving himmm..~

2006-06-24T08:22:00.000+08:00

ok my fon is officially a goner...aiyoohhh...aitee...
my week is goona be ovr soon..no more holidays.schl resumes nxt monday.but to tink of it i din hv much of a hoildy too..but its ok.haha..aiteee i hv a project due on monday at 9 am shrp but i haven finish a ting.not even the reprt.well.its csa.haa..gonna strt wif it lyk really really soon.ok wadever.
so ysetrdy i went to schl for project.so many stuff to do.and yerr,i gt sclded b4 i began my seriouz mood..hee...soorii honey~wheeee~~so afrt tht i went off to meet dearie.go eat and spent tym wif him.wheee~sweet.den he sent me all the way hm...hahz..lembuu(cow) lar he..*mmmoooooooo*as deariee owys say..wheeeeee~den we do our usual taking-till-late-nights-on-the-phone stuff.wheeee~~haha..i lyk, i lyk wen we strt to imagine stuff.lyk ystrdy we imagined a lot, a lot of romantic sencess..whheee~~if only it cn come truee..hahaha~thts tht.
so tdy i wtched barbie diary..dunno wad lar the title at kids central..verii nice shw..i lyk..wheee...i wish i was barbie.eee..no lar..i wish im me..but hehe..i love the fashion style tht barbie has.makes me feel lyk taking out a pen and strt fashion designing.whooo~den i cn hv my veri own line of clothes.but i need to ask ppl help me sew.coz of a simple reason*i cnt sew,lazee to learn*haaa~but wnt it lyk be reallly cool to wear ur own design and proudly tell the wrld abt it.but of coz muz be nice ryt.if ugly u cn keep inside ur cupbord.hehe..one day im gonna create my own fashion line.ahaz.my fashion.my lyf.my style.original.fresh.me.
well anywayy~the shw is basically to find out abt ut true self..wheee~not abt fahison..hahaha..and i lyk the fct tht barbie keeps a diary.i keep having a diary but it just ends up as trash.i wanna dairy.wheeee~a real one.aiyoohh and only i have the key to open it.wnt it be soo cool..i kno its old fashion and stuff.but i lyk so yarr..hahaha..
ok the day have been smooth for me.i keep postponing my project.well quite fed-up now.fon cnt wrk and stuff.feels lyk im missing out frm the outside wrld.even tht dearie havnt msg and stuff den my project mates i hope they kno my hm no.but wadver lar..wheeeee~i waannna relax tdy.hahz.will do project ltr tnite or wen ever.hahz..aiyyooh..den still hv to choose my cds subject.i dunno lar wad to choose haven see yet aso..haha..thingking abt french or jap.or arts appr.or dunnoo..well,hv to see tht ltr too.whee..tml myt be going out.hee..but still haven decide.dunno lar.i jus go wif the flow..but i wanna go cycling.lng tym nvr go.den im my wishlist got say i waan go riding aso..but tht one is night riding.wheeee~dunnoo..see hw tml.hahz
ouhh yar.i just realized i haven collect my o level cert.muz go bck fajar..but me lazeee..hahaz..see hw lar.ok den.thts all for now...kisssess to all.

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
*i wish i wish upon a star...*

2006-06-22T10:16:00.000+08:00

7 random facts:
#1. theres no way u cn get me by my hp now!
#2. i love my familii..eeee..mommy,daaddy,sisteerr,brotherr..
#3. i love my gurl and guys in tp..wheee~too many names to mention larr
#4. im fat and ugly..*yeahhh*
#5. i love attteennttiionnn on ME...~cheeyyyy
#6. im owayss hurtingg the ppl i lovee..*bad lar.i kno.but i dunno y aso.i obsreve myslf.aiiyoohh*
#7. i <3 deariiieeee looaaddddsssss

7 things that scare me:
#1. god...
#2. CATSSSSSS...mmmeeeeooowwww
#3. beingg a nobodyyy..i cantt..
#4. gettin a broken hearrtt.
#5. insecuriiityyy..unsurenesss
#6. ppl angry at me.(arrhh cannot)
#7. wen i break sumone's heart..*i wldnt kno wad to do.i'd be scrd*

7 random music at the moment:
#1. unfaithful,rihana
#2. everywhere,michelle branch
#3. foolish games,jewel
#4. no more drama,mary J blige
#5. only one,yellow crd
#6. u n me,lifehouse
#7. for u ill make a sng,deariiee

7 things i like the most:
#1. CHOCOLATEEEEE!!!!!!!!...heavennn...*please me wif it*
#2. WINNNIIEE THE POOOHHH...my lil cutiee pieee...
#3. tops...i need moreee...wheee~~
#4. shoes..adict to it since i wrk in shoe shp..heeee
#5. presentsss.....wheee~~cnt wit for burfdayy
#6. pleasent surpiresssss....i like like..*leave me speechless*
#7. atteeeenntiioonn on mee...esp frm thee ppl i love love

7 things i say the most:
#1. shuuddup lar,seriouzlyy or diam arghh
#2. seriouzz??!!
#3. yeah
#4. siao
#5. smck ur face , den u kno
#6. ehh..nothing..
#7. heellooooo..

7 people to do this:
anyone who's bored out of their minds and dont have anything better to do!..whoever.i dun care.whheee~
did tis coz sis ask me tooo...

love me or hate me.

u just read 7 rANDOM FACTS abt me.

so wad u tinkk??

whheeeeee~~~

oh

btw

ignore my previous post

tht was just my reflection

been doing alot lately

so yarr.

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
imperfections of tis lil gurl

2006-06-22T09:04:00.000+08:00

firstly i wanna say..plz ignore tis post.its redundent.

ever felt lyk ur just not good enuf for the wrld.lyk the expectaions of the ppl ard u is just too much.lyk wad u do just isnt enuf to make sumone smile.ever felt lyk the feeling inside u is eating u up.the stupid stuff tht just wont go awy still lingers in ur head.have u ever felt inferior abt minor stuff.lyk ure nvr gonna be good enuf and u keep pushing urslf till dere no end.u wannna prove to sumone but u ask urslf wad the point.ever felt lyk u are a useless person.u keep upsetting the ppl ard even if u din mean too.ever find tht u nvr kno hw to express urslf and the wrds tht come out are just all so wrng and u jus worsen the situaion.
maybe i just aint good enuf.maybe i just demand too much.wat i wan i shall not wan to share,even wif the closest fren wad more jus ppl i kno.i feel a ton of emotion wen tings dnt go my way.den the tings i just have got to say.my sarcasam all just add up to it.and i nvr kno how to stop.sumtyms wad i say i nvr tink before it.at these tyms i will regert it.ppl hate me for this.why cnt i control my emotions well.i dun wish to let go of anyting i have now.-my famili, my sec sch frens-ida,mel,rosie esp + the guys, my 2 babes-wanwan and hinna, my drama bytches-hidayah and fifi esp + the otr freshies, my home boys-sanji,sabar,kenneth and andrew.(im angry wif u guys but note tht i love u guys to the core.i was angry bcoz i need to kno where we stnd). and lastli, my dearieee fadz.nvr actalli felt lyk tis b4~
to thoes whom ive hurt and will hurt later on..im sorryyyyy for the imperfectionS in me.i love u guys alot and pls dun give up on me.im too much i kno..but just a lil more plz..hang on..

so till den.
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
i love love daeriiieee...

2006-06-21T13:38:00.000+08:00

sleeping in..wheee~~well..i enjoyed today..i just basicalli either sleep or sat lazyly at my couch...whheeeeeeee~~din do much though...hehe..slpt and slpt...well its beeen sooo lng since i had a good nite rest...so i use the whl of tdy to sleeeepppppppp~~~wheeeeeeeeeee~darlz*love it..feel so refreshed nw.my energy level suddenlii shoot up..but now hw to sleep ltr?haha..i aso dunnoo..i haben eat aso..waiting for mommy and daddy to get hm...whhheeee~~
so abt ystrdy...hehe...whheeeeeeee~dearie hahaa...so he came hm..and well at frest his heart beat was lyk rocket..whoooshhh~hahaha...well it took him loads of courage to come!!!my grnny was at hm too..and she saw him...haha..ermm..so dad saw him but as usal dad wnt talk much to him.just ask him a few qns..it was mom who talk wif him.haha..qns were asked..ask him usrslf if u wanna kno wad mom and sis asked him..wheee...~if there hadnt been a fan at hm he'd be drwning in his sweat...haha...tis is jus lyk mom and sis asking..dad not yet..haha..but dearie keep saying tht in a while he'd be bestfren wif dad...whheee~i dun tink its tht easyy lar u..hahaha..but keep trying..i wanna see how u do it..whheeee~~den talk abt normal stuff..i lyk it.coz i lyk can soo be myslf infrnt of daeriie..i dun hv to pretend2...haha..mama if ure reding tis, stp smiling larrr..when fadz was at hm mama and fadz kept laughing2 dunnoo why..laugh at me lar i tink..i dunoo why aso..siao..haha..~den talk2 everyone din realize tht it was 11.30 oreadii..if fadz live near nvrmind.we practicalli live at 2 ends of spore..haha..so yar..tld him to go hm..den i sent him to the bus stp and waited for the taxi wif him..whheee~haha..talk2 at the bus stp..fun2..lyk dnt wanna go but had too...hahah..doink..so then it was done for the day~ tnkss deariieeee so much~
oh yeaaa...fadz gave me loads of stuufff...he tink he santa claus..haha..i got a wallet(pink!but i stilll lyk),badge(" F "..he aso got.sweet),shirt(ohhh yea i cn fit.its jus nice!!),pooh hp pouch(cutie.i lyk)and.....a cute lil bear wif "i love u"..(i love love.he say it reminds him of me.goinks.)..5 things..haha..siao..actali got shorts for me aso.but he left it at kl..hahaa..gonkss..whheeeee~tnks deariieeee....<3 u...
half way thrugh wryting mom got hm, and i just ate dinnerr..wheee~ chicken rice~~~

so till den..
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
i wanna grw up..let me..

2006-06-20T16:27:00.000+08:00

deariee met mom and dad!!!!hahahax..ok lar..enuf..
so tday went to schl..clear up the dressing rm..haha..b4 we strted..we played tis game shadon introduced..the wolf i tink..haha..i so dunnoo..hahha..but dyaammm fun!!i lyk so good at it i tink tht ppl dun trust me anymore..muahahha..idiot..my talents are good man..hahha..*no shame lar fi..*so clered up the rm and stuff..not many ppl came.some came and had to levea too.so yar.ened up onli a few of us styed until we cleared the whl audi up.den wen all our stuff were done we went bck to audi and played bluff..haha..im not tht bad player ok...haha..den all hungry so we decided to eat at kfc..wheee~so we-me,rainbow,hid,fifi1 followed by ferhan and his fren and den shadon and yazid went to eat at kfc..haha..den deariee came wif k and pika.den me and deariee left..actalii felt a lil dwn..tink coz mood swing..haha..but den ok..
haha..so spent the aftrnoon wif deariee..at bugis.wlk to esplanade..i tink i push him too much to walk!!!sorieeee...hahaha..bt so yah..haha..den ard 9 ++ we went hm..his heartbeat was still ok in the bus,but wen undr the blck it began to race..muhahaha...den i realized tht my grandmom is at hm..haha..his heart race more..haha..but i guess he talked to my mom ok..den ya..he went hm..haha..tml i'll blog abt tis in detail..im tired now..wheee~~so good nite...

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg~
deariieee met mom and dad!!

2006-06-19T09:30:00.000+08:00

current feeling:-emotion-less..hahaha..well aside frm the fct tht im still trying to brush off production feeling..muahaha..i've been bloog-hooping lately..came a couple of blogs tht i nvr wish i had went to..im too tired to feel anything ryt now..now i wonder hw many ppl actaully come acrss my blogg and nvr tagg me..but wadevr i guess..na'aanhh...so i wanted to post abt myslf ..lets strt wif this..

SCORPIO - WOMAN
A simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can tell right way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displays herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it's in her character.
A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident and deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think she is borne a woman and so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules. She is a real woman and despite her innocent and childish looks, she has a spirit of free soul. Many men will make mistake if they think she is a good follower, they are wrong.
She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have power and control over other people, but this will be only her secret, so you will only see a cute woman. Every things she does will look good, and she has all the woman's trick you can think of. She can manipulate men without they knowing it.
If you think she going to do everything you say because she loves you, then you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can understand you by just looking in your eyes. You may say sweet words which could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will use her X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what you are going to say. She always smile and she can really hide her feeling.
She will constantly show you that she loves freedom. If she has freedom, she will not leave you, but will even love you more. If she wants something, she will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth sense of people and you can feel that energy feed back when you around her. She likes a man who can earn her respect, and she will also respect and feel proud of that man. A man with power over her should not threat or challenge her confident. She likes to have a good looking , strong and healthy man especially if she start to compare with her friends' boyfriends. It is a plus if he hold a degree or a good career.
She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hates, there are no "fond of", or "like" for her. Love has no "may be", or "perhaps". If she is real mad, she will trash and throw things. Her wind storm can sweep all her dishes and you could get accidentally hit on your head for this matter. Be calm, it is just your grand mother favorite china for she has good quality as much as her bad tempered.
Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won't be long. She will put herself together and back to be that hot chili again. If she loves you, it will be no matter what other people may say. Her relationship will be more important than what is right or wrong. Because of this reason, you may know some Scorpio woman become a second wife, a mistress.
She is spoil, but she allows her love one to over power her. Dating this woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in your house. It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she will argue about this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a temper of the shrew.
If you play a cold war with her, she will treat you likewise and double it. If you stood her up once, she will stood you up 2-3 times. She is quite fair in justice, so she can accept your apologies as much as she can pretend to accept things for now and wait for a pay back revenge in the future. If you are nice to hear, she will double that to you as well. A real fair woman.
She likes to make and spent money. She likes to have fame and reputations, and never let herself broke and have no name at the same time. She is too proud and will not accept status of being "Poor". She loves to have face, so if you are a manager with small salary, she will be proud more than more money being a truck driver. She hates to think and she! can not stand a feeling of being a "Nobody".
If you like her, play a little hard to get. This will excite her a bit. When you go out on a date, set your schedule, but do not let she knows that you have planned this for weeks. Always go to pick her up on time or better to go 5-10 minutes early.

true, true and true..so true..so basicalli tis is me..nvr mess wif me..muhahaha*eveil laugh*..try reading and undrsnt why scorpio women lyk myslf behave tis way..we love making a mountain out of a molehill and jealousy is just part of who we are.and nvr break out trust!!but wadever..

so fadz suppose to come hm tdy..at last..still waitng for his call..hahx..many peeps are missing him lyk mad..well me? i dnt tink i miss him as much as All the rest of them...aiiyoohh...hahaa...

today..some more thought are in my mind..help..haha..im going nuts wif soo much tinking happening...tdy im wondring abt me.so hw imprtnt am i?lyk if i were to be gone lyk just lyk tht wld anyone even care to ask abt me?wad if one day im tired of being me.and i run awy so far.wen i turn bck wld sumone be there chasing aftr me?hw wld i kno wad i mean to sumone.am i just tht gurl or do i mean so much more.cn i trust tht im good just being me.or do i need to do more to prove my point.maybe...but i still love me..for me

so till den

wif loads of <3

fima darlinGg

waiting for sumting special

2006-06-18T07:23:00.000+08:00

wheeee~~so production is finally ovr and the week is cuming to an end!!!!weehhheeeeeeeeeeee~i guess the freshies were ok in helping out..thnks to igggyyy..hahaha..ure lyk the coolesstt..haha..the production itslf was a sucess..good job to the seniors..wheee~~finnally ovr wif the waking up in the morning and stufff~~hee~~
im soo beat now..lyk practcally a walking dead zombeeiii...*be frighten*...hehes...anywayyyyyy...im so mad!!!!!my fon is sooo spoilt..idiot larr...tis is lyk the 4th fon ive got..i lost 1 and spoilt 3 including tis one. ..nice ryt...i tink im not faited to hold fons..argghh..but tell me now hw do my peeps wana gt me?haha..i aso dunnoo..mommy dun wanna buy me new fon coz she say i wnt kno hw to use it and will spoil it agn!!!!HELPPPPP !!!tis sux lar..but wadever larrrr...jus survive w/o it ferst..at least no monthly bill to face wif ltr..hahah...so yeahhh..fon dead !!
so my mom is sick now..asthma i tinkk..i wish papa wld stp smoking..its reallii bad..oreadi bad for the kids..lyk me coz i hv sinus and my small bros..now tings are wrse wif my mom sick and all..one day im gonnaa hide all his cigaratte pck..hahha..*evil fima on the loosee*..i dunno lar..i hear her cough veri scrd..dunnoo wad to do..but she'll be betterrr....to the peeps out there who smokess plz look ard and see who u are actualii infectin..stp being selfish..passive smokers are affected..muhahahahaha..soo glad fadz dnt smoke..hehz.~
speaking of whichh..haha..2 more days and he's cuming back..wooohooo~~cnt wait to see the lembuu..wanna see if he gain weight..i hope he does..hahah~~sooo cnt wait for monday to see him~~weeehheee.. meeeemiissiinngghhiimmmlkkyyymmaaddd~~
so yeahh..basicallii lyf is up to there for me..well even so some thoughts juz love to linger in my head....friends i must say..how wld u kno if they are true to u..u see ppl bytching abt ppl all the tym..bckstabbings and stuff.hw u kno u're not the victim?cn u really be sure of those u hang ard wif or mix wif.can u really trust the ppl ard tht u see.maybe some are real but to wad xtend cn u turst tht its real?some may envy u but nvr say, some may hate u but they keep it.i'd rather ppl be frank and say.coz vengence is not nice if it comes frm me.see many tyms in lyf u face wif ppl either u hate or u love.not many ppl behave the way you want them too.and its sad and den u hate.but at these tyms ppl fail to see yet the otr side of them.the good or the potential they have.i dun tink its ryt to hate sumone.bytching myt be human nature but stp when nessary.bcoz the more u bytch abt sumone,the more u see the ugly side of them,the more stains u see in them and den as innocent as they are,u strt to hate em.den there are thoes who u just trust so much and den just they let u dwn.den u begin to wonder.do i actaulli matter?wad if i wasnt here wld anyone miss me or even care?den at these tym u will refct on lyf and hw much frens realli matter..den wen u're sad u see lyf in a differnt prespective.hw importnt frens are?not realli improtant .u cn survive w/o ppl lyk tem.but hw important ar true frns?verii..this is where u put ur trust and ur heart.to tis ppl u hv to be true.take care of their hearts and nvr hurt it.in lyf this true frens are hard to find.but wen found they are the best of thm all.so yarr..tht wad i tink.i love my frens.alot.

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg..
awaiting for his return..<<33s

2006-06-14T14:57:00.000+08:00

bordem.
haa..so i got up lyk late tdy.ard 10 plus.*at least abit late den my usaul lar*..haa..gonkss..so yeahhh..sent my bro to tution den went bck hm for brkfasst..haaa..me eating breakfastt..lyk oni happen once in a whilee..wheeee~so den aftr tht went for DT....
k ferstlliii i hv new roles aside frm hair stylist in the production..haa..im lyk helping pika in front of house.den they neede ppl for a disco scene so they asked the foh ppl to help out be in the scene..haaa..sooo im lyk in the scene..funny thing..ystrdy b4 i went hm i was lyk sitting in the middle of the stage and imagining myslf in the play..haa..den tdy found out tht im lyk needed to be an xtra..soo yehhh..i lyk spaced out coz hv to be in the scene but lyk got weird feeling but happy abit too i guess~~so tdy iggy tried on make up on me..ferstii it was heavy on the eyes..and one eye looked lyk it was being bashed up by some guys..woohoo~~hahha...*dey said fadz beat me up..hahaha..kiidiig oni darlz k..haha*hahaa..den wen they helping my get rid of the make up..suddenlii got stinngyy feeliing in my eyes..*veriveriveri pain!!!*den i rushed to the nearest toilet to wash my face..a male toilet btw..~whee...den all ok..den go buy dinner..*cup noodle* ..but i din finish u see..tooo hot larrr..so i put aside..thn raz help me finish..hahaha..so lyk yeah..we wtch the tech run tdy..gt aa idea of the wlh production..so yeah..basicallii din do much tdy..haha..btw i wanna announce wanwan and hinnaa..my rainbow and my honey..im not angry wif u guys..i love u guys to the coreee..hahahaa..still missing darlz but now chatting wif him..so yeahh..at least got communicate..~~whee~~

soo till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
wheeeeee~~~missiinnggginactionn

2006-06-13T14:13:00.000+08:00

omg!!!i worte a verii long entry and it lyk got deleted off..idiot..so lemme rmbr wad i wrote..
Ouchhh~~my head still hurt frm yestrdyy..~~weehheee..
tdy is lyk im-not-myslf-but-i-still-had-fun kinnda dayy..i had lyk noo mood to bee my goofyy self..i guess..too stressed up..lol..see basicalllyy..jus now in drama..my close bycthes and frens were not there...and i kinddda had alot to do..so it all just pilesss upp...bllerrgghh~
so yarr..woke up earliie tdy for drama..loads of stuff to finish up..~~daddy sent me and my sis to schl..i reached schhl daymm earliiee..so sat at the mushroom to wait for darling alyah..den look through my fon~den suddeen rushh of miiissiiigggnessss...~so left a msg..yeahh..~dennn i saw saihah..she lyk going to rock climbing and she waited for her frens too..so yahh...ltr all the rock climber were lyk ard us..den some even thought i was prt of them..lol..na'ahh...
so ltr alyah came..even afrt she came, we still had to wait coz the audi haven open until lyk abt 10 den it opened..so yeahhh..strted doing minor stuff ferst..den run an errand for kay..den went bck to do the fly bar thingyy..so much worrkk..oh yahh.. i forgot..b4 i help wif the fly bar thingyy...i set up the pantry..haha..and help priya cook soupp..hahaha..ok well not cook.just the simple cambell soup..i help open can,put water and stir2..hahaha..cute ryt..i knoo..hahah*fima no shame seehhhyy*...so yarr back to todayy..i worked, worked and worked..and yeah..all the way till dinnerr..by dinner tym evryone were lyk pastering me to eat and stuff..but i still din..haha..i wanted to lyk finish the fly bar thingy quicklii..hahah..so aftr my job was done..i still din eat..hahaha..so yeahhh~~an accompishment is tht at last we finished doing the fly bar..yeahh~less stress for my seniors..esp kay..so hurrayy for us~~yeahh..so proud of us..hahaha*saluutteee us larrr***
ssooo..guess wadd....darlz jus called me ..frm kl!!!hahaha..guess wad..he bought me a wallet..den he opened it and checkk,it was PINK..hahaha..he knos i hate PINK...so he called and ask me if i wan it..if i dun wan it..hes goonna throw or wad...he siao arghh...then i was lyk.."eh..u dun waste ur money can or not"..idiot lar he..tld him not to buy me stuufff..hahaha..but tnks....hahha..gong lar papan..haha..so yeahh..he asked me to wryt a whl paragrp on hw much i miss him..eeeiii..no shame lar lembuuu..hahaha..ok i wyt k..tis is for u FADZLEY:

"i miss u a lot a lot alot alot.i keep tinking of u.kept dreming of u.i miss u sooo much tht even wrds are not enuf to desribe how much i miss u.kept going to ur blooogy to see ur entry.keep staring into space draming of u.kept staring at u lovely pics.i miss bullying u,punching u and mostly i miss u."

hahahahahaha..so tht was for fadz..a whl paragrp...forced to wryt for him..hahaha..lol..cnt help laughing larr...hahaha...nonsense..hahhaha...fadz siao..hahah.~~yueahhh..but i do miss him larr..hahaha..so yeahhhh~~blueeekkk...

so till den

wif loads of hearts..

fima dalinGg <<333eeiiuuuu!!!

2006-06-12T06:29:00.000+08:00

weeehhheee~~~just finished reading his blooggyy...haaaa...
well ystrdy i got drama ..helping out wif the production and stuff...fun but tiring..den i did sumting stuupiid and fell..i dunno y am i such a fool..luckiillii not many ppl saw me...wooohoo~~soo yeahh..tiring day..afrt tht went out for a rest wif deariiee ..sat dwn..talk..i was eatin ice cream and he drnking coke..haaa..so yeahhh..i cried..haaa...so lyk yeahh..he kno and i kno..so much of sweetness..den i had to go hm..erruumm..went hm wif harbin and wan2 and yeah he sent me hm all the way to the void deck..i kno tht lyk frm tamp he send me all the way to wdlnds den he go back to pasir ris lyk veri troublesome.but i din force him and he did promise so yaeh..he sacrificed his tym ..haha..but nvrmind...tnkzz u..alot..haaa...so yarr...den my sis and bro look at him frm the balconyy..haha..lyk spys.haha..
so daeriiee is in kl now~~yeahh..gonna miss him..yeah..lyk he siad no one to laugh and merajok too..haha..and no one to distrub me..so yeahh..~cnt wait for him to get bck to spore wif my SOUVENIRS!!!hahaha...na'aaah..
so tdy my granny and autnty is cuming bck to spre frm thailand..dunno if my mom wanna go to the airport..but i tink noo..coz its lyk rainningg noww...i aso cnt wait for my SOUVENIERS frm dem..hahaha...i kno i no shme..hahaha..
so yeahhh~let see the nxt updates to see hw im goona survive tis week of veri different tings tht im goin through...weehhee~cnt wait for it to be ovr and done wif..lookin forward for the drama production and stuff..and yeah..for his return.. cum hm soonn

so till den
wif loads of missess
fima darlinGg
ps: me <<33 leembu loads loads loads...

2006-06-10T14:21:00.000+08:00

at last!!!!!so the test week is ovr..so is my stress..haa..my stress is not because of studies..duhh..hahah..but more on hw do i smokee through the test w/o making myslf look lyk an idiot..well i guess im am always an idiot and there's nooo way of escaping tht...so papers were tuff..papers lyk macro and csa and pom..haaa..i tinkk im soo gonna flunkk..there lyk a 50-50 on lcom..so yeahhhh!!!thts how the papers were...
soo..days went fine as the week settled in..lyk on monday i met fadz and he gave me a lovely drwing..and i bent itt..ouhh..im soo sorryy fadzzz..and yarr tnks deariiee.. den tuesday was aitee..so was wed ..thursday i styed bck afr schl to help wif drama thingyy.we had to lyk sell tix for the production.but we din do much i guess.not many ppl knew abt the production i guess..so yarrggg..den friday, lyk today aftr the final paper went for lunch and eerrumm yehh...den got drama ltr in the afrtnoon..and errumm..im lyk the hair stylist now for drma poduction..then yeh..i dunoo..i tink im lyk stuuppidd or sumting..i did make fadz angry wif me..idiot larr me..im so sorry fadz..so yeahhh...den i went to have dinner and din stay on for drama production at 8 coz i promised my mom i'd be home earliee today..so yarr..now im hm..having my usual spins..headaches.and im having crampss..ouhh..ishh.my flu just got better too..sick..and yeh..basicallii tinking of my whl weekk..guess i had fun and oni lyk the making him angry tht prt suxed..so yehhh...
fadz going kl nxt week..to be more precised lyk tis sunday..ishh..him going off for lyk 1 week..and me will be bz for the drama prodution thigy..so yahh..i will miss him loads..haax..cnt deny tht..so yarhh...
realii dumb for words now..just reflecting my previous week and hw the nxt one gonna be..one wif exams and test..anthr wif production and drama..one wif books and all..anthr wif hair spray and all..one wif fadz there..antr wif him gone.. so yarhhh...goona be a change !!
and yarr..im lykk soo cashhless noww...~~~~!!!!!!!!!!aarrgghhhh~~!!!!

tnks spydy agn for tis..
i love.love.love it...

so till den
wif loads of heartss
~fima darlinGg
ps: im an idiot..i kno..plz forgive the flawss tht i hv...~<3eeeiiiuuuu

2006-06-05T13:21:00.000+08:00

aghh...ok..tis is lyk gonna be my last entry b4 the mid-sem exams...haha..during the exams i wont do any entry..so my blog will not up-to-date for lyk 5 days or so..hahaha...
today..went out wif sister and cuzzyy..rina,detha and romeo..go bugis ..ate at banqute..[is tis hw u spell it???]..haha..ok my speeeling sux..but wad ever..erumm..i ate roasted chicken noodles..yummmyyy...den went to orchard.heerreeenn..first stp..walk ard..took neo-prints...haaa..uglyy...hahaha...den walked to far east..walk2 ard..den frm far east go lot 1..eat agn..at my all tym fav fast food ljs..wooohhooo~~~wheee..met mr ong..fjs teacher..dunno he rmbr my name or not..den...took neo-print agn..can u belive me..or us?i mean..2 neo-prints in one dayy..wooohhooo..hahaa...den bck to my hommeee...at hm..i ate 2 piece of chicken..im gonna be fat!!!!hahahahaha...~~~ishhh...
ok..so not muchh i hv to sayy..but im lyk soo tired..and i kno my cuzzyys' love lyf oredeii..muhaha..so day todayy..preetii much tiring...haaa...i hv pics..but im lyk soo lazee to host them tdy...coz i haven uploaded it..but here's some tht rinnaa send me...so feast ur eyes...

detha and mee!!hahahaa

the princess in the middle~
[detha,me, reennaa]

aiteee..othr pics will be hosted nxt tym..promishhh...aitee...soo i hv to STUDYYYY....bluueekkk..hate test..hahaha.....so yar...misssinggsummoonnee<3!!!!!!!

so till den
wif loads of heartss...
fima darlinGg~~
spideyyy...u argghhh..hahahah...

2006-06-04T08:49:00.000+08:00

haaa..firstly..im sick..dwn wif flu..dunno whyy lorkx..haaa..den i hv to studyy for upcoming test..den im gonna hv 2 weeks to enjoyz..wheeeeee~~

song in my head noww!!!!
for u i'll make a sng..-artisit sumone i adore...dun change the tittle pleashhh
since the day tht i meet u
i fell in love wif u
since the day tht i meet u
i fell in love wif u
now tht we are apart
it just breaks my heart
stay..in need u here with me..
with me
coz i kno tht i love u
and i kno tht i need u
i will not let u go
dun leave me on my own
coz i kno tht i'll need u
till the end of my lyf
i will not let u go
dun leave me on my own
i want u to be here for me
i want u to be here for me
plz accept my apology
i kno tht i love u..ouhh..
coz i kno tht i love u...uu..
i kno tht i love u

haa..the lyrics i dun actualii know..but tis is frm my own understnding of the sng..haaa.. i tink i did change it here and there..but yeahhh...i love love this sng...ahax..love love ...<3s spidey loads..

till den..
wif loads of heartss
fima darlinGg
..me misss f3...wheee~

2006-06-03T14:33:00.000+08:00

Ignorance.. hw painful.
Well..see..the picture was unclear to me..rellii dunno wad happened..I dun wana hv tings sour for me.some sngs ringing in my head now......
Foolish games-jewel
in case u fail to notice
In case u fail to see
Tis is my heart bleedin b4 u
Tis is my me dwn on me knees
This foolish games are tearing me aprt
Uir thoughtless wrd are breaking my heart
Youre breaking my heart..
Everytm- Britney spears
Notice me, take my hands
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strg..y carry on w/o me
Evertym I try to fly I fall
w/o my wings I feel so small
Thts why I need u baby

Arggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....nonsense....im going nuts....cuukkooo....feel lyk idiot........

not even a hello or a byee

so till den
wif myslf
fima darlinGg

2006-05-31T13:31:00.000+08:00

feeling:::::::--angry.happy.mad.lost.blur.weird.but basicallyyy..i really am CONFUSED!!!...i dunno if i shld be happy or sad or angry or jealous or noisy or mad or pissed or sorry or bad or jovial or lost or loud or fake or ...a lot more...sooo.. todayy..i found bck my appitite..i ate 3 sndwtchs.1 chicken chop.1 plate of mommys cooking.conflakes too.happy and glad tht im bck to normal.knowing tht there's nuting wrng wif me.but sad coz i kno im gonna put on weight agn..coz gosh..i eat alot.alot.alot.abit lyk rainbow.trust me!!
wad eles happened...eerruumm..went earliee to schl to do our Lcom OP..was lyk so trying our best to do well.feeling tht tym.stressed.then a hero came to the picture.she was going ard giving ppl free red bull.woohhoo..realii neede it tht tym.just qunched my thirst and gave me energy.feeling tht tym.high.so ltr went to class .POM.everyone strted talking abt Lcom tutor.mrs lim.and tht some went on to lodge a complaint on her to mr ferlin and all.i was shocked tht tht happenedbut yeh.also i was scrd tht mrs lim wld not come to class or come to scld us.feeling tht tym.depressed.at POM aso hinna was lyk sick.gosh.pitty her man.and i was lyk so scrd for her.feeling tht tym.worried.then went for lunch at jupiter's.ate abit.felling tht tym.nice.saw fadz for awhile.feeling tht tym.happy.went up to outside Lcom class to practice my OP.feeling tht tym.nervous.mrs lim came went to class den she talked abt the complaint.feeling tht tym.depressed.our grp insisted tht she see our OP coz we reallii wanted to kno where we sntd.during OP i talk crap.feeling tht tym.nervous.aftr OP went to talk to mrs lim.she said tht we were good and we got b+ each.feeling.happy.went out of class rejoiced wif my girls.feeling tht tym.excited.rainbow did well today and when talking to her.feeling tht tym.proud.den went to itas eat meet drama peeps.feeling tht tym.crazee.den went to meet fatin.steeled some stuff wif her.feeling tht tym.pisseed.finished talking.feeling tht tym.relief.meet fadz agn.feeling tht tym.ok.found out some shitty stuff.feeling tht tym.idiotic.went hm.got msg frm melissa.bad msg.feeling tht tym.idiotic.at hm.went to friendstr see me testi and my bloogg by mel.feeling tht tym.stressed.talk on the fon wif fadz for awhile.feeling tht tym.blurr.
see..im having mixed feelings tdy seriouzliii..first to clear things up.mel i realli do miss u guys even i dun msg u guys or wad.my lyf mow is good and i asssume urs is too.look realli am sorry i din take the initiative to call u guys ferst.but gurl.u were bz too and u kno hw its lyk.so pleash.realli am sorrii..u guys are still my best friends.i cross my heart to tht.
nxt..im just basicallii piisssed wif me..i wann thing to be a lil diff now..guess i ask to much coz wen things dun go my way my anger inside just flush itslf out.guess im just pissed wif how things are.and tht maybe jealousyy had to do alot wif wads been happening today..

so mixed up now..
so till den
wif hearts
fima darlinGg
~fadz sorry tht i was typing tis and din layan u on the fon.i wanted to get my feeling out ferst.and u were talking to ur frens too~~love my lembuu...

2006-05-29T15:49:00.000+08:00

sing for me agn!!!..haha...aiteee...sooo many to sayyy..dunnoo where to strt or wad to sayy..haa..lets strt wif fridayy..CCN day in schl..wooohooo~haha..hate some parts love most parts..yeahh..so woke i in the morning..go schl..late for apel..did my boards at the libary aftr apel..finished it up..met some ppl frm the class..went ard selling kacang puteh..hahx..bargain ard wif the peeps to get them buying..aiiyoohh..so hrd...haha..but turns out alryt..haa..some idiots here and there..haa..and my ferst cusotmer was raz..hahah..and i did force fadz to buy..muahah..guess tht was wad i did wif the othr customers too..haa.den aftr tht spt a while..went to see performance by fadz and his band..gr8, nice and love it..esp the last bit.muahah..den went up to the dance "clubbing" by our law inc..and yeahh..i din dance at ferst..muaaha..den ltr was abit diff larr..i got dance here and dere..guess i was the wrst dancer ard..well..even so w/o us the law dance floor wld be emptyy..it just needed us to be there ..HAA..den meet fadz and he surpised me wif flowerss..haha..hu say u nvr surpise me..haa..den gt coregrp in ltr at 6..woohoo..enjoyzz...bestt..miss my drama peeps...
saturday drama thigy in schl..enjoysss..haa..got loads of activies...enjoy..did some thigy at drama..den wtch the seniors act..dymm..love tht prt but hate it too...haaa..den ovrnite..whoosshhhh~~~enjoyyy..shhhishh..haaa...
today..went to schl..hate hate hate legal com..i did badly for my OP..whhoosshhh...and the ferst tym today someone tells me tht tey cnt rely on my englishh.. idiot...many were driven out of class too..wooshh..hate itt..othr den tht my day was gr8..meet fadz and me met my whl family for a whilee..so paisehh sehh he..haha..rainbow took the car and went hm wif us..the best ride of her lyf i guess.haaa..she even said it..haaa...went to makmiks hse aftr tht and spent the tym SLEEPING!!!!haaa...

so till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg
sing for me foreverrr....lembuu...haaaa...

2006-05-27T16:36:00.000+08:00

i just gonna post pics today coz im lazee to updatee..i willl promise to update bout tis day the nxt tymmm....
so yeahhh..

me and my bestiess...

the 4 of us...

me and wanwan..rainboww

honneeyy and meee.

the othr babes of my lyf..

the rose amg the thorns...me.rose.

a pic..of the 7 of us..yeahhh..

nisha and meee...shweet sehh her..

fadz and mee..

i got tis ...

frm him...

thts all for now..and yehhh
"imsorrythatididnottellyouthatiloveyouandiwillholdontoyouinmyheartdearlysayingimsorry"
i found tis sum where..and yeahh...i just felt lyk posting it here..hahahaha..

soo till den..
loads of heartss..
fima darlingg..
~~wheee...fellinngg up

2006-05-25T13:24:00.000+08:00

wad if my smiles were fake?my laughter was made up?..wad wld u do to cheer me up?...gossh..lyf have been TOOOOOO "fair" to me..im having some fun tyms yet the stress behind it all ..the pain inside..ish..cnt take it anymore..too much stress..so many projects, due dates, OP and meeting and meetings...i cnt..a slacker i have been for 16 yrs of my lyf and all of a sudden i have to cahnge my ways..gosh..unfair man..i cnt even do things at my own way..always bz wif stuff~ tis and tht and stuff beyond poly..blerrgghhh..STRESSS..the one thing i cnt handle..bluekkk~i hate it..ish....who ever said poly is easy..im gonna kill 'em..arrgggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!...& btw i did breakdown bcoz of tis...ish..i kno its soo childish..but i cnt help it, im emotional and crying makes me feel betterr...just cheer me up wif ice-cream or chocolate...haaa~~wheee~

so todayy..i went retro wif my gurls..woohooo..~~yeahh..the stares we got in schl..muhahaha...its kinndddaa cool to lyk set ur own fashion style and walk in it with pride.honestlii even if we dress the same theme we still l0ok diff..raainnbow wif her rockish style..honey wif her sweet sense and me wif my street wearrr..yeahh..woohhoo...hahah..well the bad part of today's fashion statement was SKIRTS....i mean i dnt do well in skirts...seriouzlii..ugly..not me..hahha..but yeah..i did wear a skirt today..hahahahaha,,how i look?~lyk an idiot~~~~~im sooo happy wif honey and rainbow now..nvr thought i cld find any bestfrenz lyk 'em sooo fast..muhahaha...
so today i din eat properlii agn..seriouzlii..its not tht i dun wanna eat..just tht this few days i just cant eat..lyk the food is there staring at me but my stomach just refuses to take it..so this few days my food to keep me strng is .....~~~CHOCOLATE!!!!!yeahhhh..dnt tell me to stp eating this pleasshh..hahaha
so..me and wan prepared our CCN day stuff but trust me we still have a long way too go before we finish it ..and we have to finish by lyk friday..haha..wadever larr...erruumm..we were at the libaryy just now and sat wif kenneth and sanji and talk soo deeeeeppppp..hahaha...love thoes guys..they just make my day..haa beside of coz the gurls and spideyy..hahaha...i guess we are just glad to have each other..muahhaha...frenss lyk tis seriouzlii are worth all my tym..hahaha...the best part is this part of the conversation:~

fima: meet him one day

sanji: yeh..ask him to come see us one day..

fima:sure...

sanji:.........if i kno he's a bastard i would beat him up..(hands doing veri violent action..haha)

hahha..nvr thought they wld care so muchh..hahahahahaha..soo shweettt..haha
i did meet fadz for lyk a while in the libary and yeahh..he had rehersal..oh yeh....fadz spoilt his bagg..almost got hit by a car..wore a girls t-shirt and l0st his handphone todayy....bad day for him i guess...dont worryy aitee...its all gonna turn out ok..just why are u so careleess..?how to contact u...ish..haha..but seriouzlii fadz..i guess the othr part of the day did turn out well..
so otw hm ..my head was lyk serioussllllyyy spinningg...hahaha..i dunno why..im lyk having spins nowadays..guess tooo streessss..lol..hahaha..and in the single-decker-full bus wanwan decide tht she wans to do her CCN stuff there..ishh..hahaha..yeahh..
so today was boring ..no nuting..just a few ups here and there and shock too.haha..oh yahhh..btw if u lky to read my bloog and gossip bout it behind my back, pleasshh stp being chlidish..dun u hv ur own lyf to worry abt..and yeh..taggg me and shw it to my face tht u actualliii are bytching abt my lyf..gosh..are ur lyfs out there boring enuff tht u guys just have to bytch abt the lyf's of the other ppl.??.STUPID FOOLS..ishh!!

so till den
wif loads of heartss..
fima darlinGg..
waiting for pleasent surpirse...waiting for happy moments...

2006-05-23T14:34:00.000+08:00

ishh..today im blogging abt 2 days..so bear wif me..yeahh~~
21st may 2006~Sunday
woke up earliee..made milk for the boys..denn bck to bed..i cld bearliiee open my eyes..haaa..so yeah woke up later tht day and yeahhh..bath, eat, clean and bytch..haa..yeahh..den ard aftrnoon go get readii and go to my auntyy placee..yeahhh~~then sarted talking abot boyfren and gurlfren..yeahh~~~warrr..paiseyy...alot of crap was said...haa..haha..den dunnoo say about dance nite bring boyfren lar and gurlfren larr..crapp..
den at ard 6 plusplus i went out ...i went to NUS to watch man of letters wif fadz and yeahh~

some pics to feast ur eyes..yeahh~

so yeahh..watch the musical tht was suppose to end earliee but ended late!!haa~~and meet K aftr the shw..thw whl musical was romantic so to say..kwel settings, fabulooouuss casting..best parts were the poems in the musical..u kno hw much i love poems.haaa...so yeahhh..how i wished i was part of tht muscical..erumm..i saw desmond at the theather too..whooohoooo..he hasnt change abit..whooo...still him but we sat quite far so i din get to chat wif him tht much.haa..so yerr one more thing, i saw dick lee..haa..hes lyk so tall and his hair blocked fadz view.haaa..too bad for fadz..haaa..

the funniee thing was tht we din kno hw to go there and got up on the wrgn bus and wen we wanted to go hm we were asoo lyk gunduuss..dunnooo wheres the bus and got a whl tour in the bus ard the NUS..muahaaa..and fadz put all the blame on me bcoz he said i went there b4 so i shld kno..haaa..but hes the blunderr..he brought us there so he was the one who is suppose to shw us where is where..blueeekk!!overall the day was qutie well spent wif famili and him and all..so yehhh..funn tyms singing, laughing and sulking..muahaaa...love..love the dayy..yeahh..haaa...

soo..

22nd may 2006~monday

woke up earliee..bath..send izzul to schl..bck hm..prepare for schl..and off to schl..met wawan as usual..funny thing abt her..evern if im late tht day she cn find tym to be even later thn me..i tink she got censor on me or sumting tht i oways hv to wait for her..muhahaha..yeahh ..went libary did project..went canteen had lunch but i din finished it..saw fadz for awhile and chat and and yeahh bad thing..aftr class clear all up..and yeahh..fine now?i guess..if i was a boy id hate myslf..haha..s o o s o r r y a t i e e d a e r i e e p r o m i s s h h i w o n t d o a n y t i n g l y y k k t i s a g n n ..so yeahhh..ishh fadz if tht thing is lost id lyk soo kill u ok..hahaha..its special to me..and i hope u appriciate it...dnt loossee it..haaa...

till den..

loads of heartss..

fima darlinGg

<3s>

2006-05-21T06:33:00.000+08:00

ishh..
*blushblush*
yesterday was fun..reallii fun..yeahh..
*[F]or you [I]'ll [M]ake [A] song*
tis was my clue..but i din kno it would come so fast...so yeahh..u asked me if i knew..i told u i had a feeling it would come and yer..tis is hw i knew..haaa..
anyway..yestrday i had class in the morining and was pratically late for about 5 mins or so and yeah luckilii it was mr. pok..ouhh..love him maann..haa..and yer i did his hw and hinna was proud of me and rainbow for doin our work..haa...guess the lazee me realii have to go awy ..then i went for csa lecture where many many peeps actualii skipped..haa..so boring..and i hate hate hate computers..uerrrmm yeh..so class finished at 1.yeah.haaa
aftr tht i went to lunch at itas, met raz and he gave me his seat..tnks raz!! so afrt tht honey, rainbow and me went to meet mr pok and sum othr peeps to disscuss abt CCN day or isit CNN ..haa..i dun realii kno..and yerr were gonaa sell kacang puteh and we dun hv a cart and yadayadayada..alot to disscuss and im in chrge of the deco thingy for promotions and yerr..thts abt it for the meeting and mr pok bought for us drinks.cool isnt he.muahaha..so aft tht we went to the libary and meet gerad for project and we practicallii kept teasing ech othr..haa..fun tym in the libary..and yeahh..my peeps are cool.haaa
aftr tht went to design canteen.dere was sumting sumone wanted to shw me.guess tht was the bomb of the day..haaa...im still lyk blushing frm yesterdayyyy...whoooo~~yeahh now E v e r y t i n g G i s s o f i n e e n o w d a e r l i e e . . j u z z l e t t i s t a y y t i s w a y y o k ? ?
so den went to itas and den to outside libaryy....DRAMA IS LYK SOOOOOO COOOOOL!!!i guess the freshies were lyk so noisy..and yer tht includes me..but heck..we had fun..it was one of fadz's rules..fadz we did have fun even if we lyk fooled ourslf yesterday..i will stick to drama even if sumting happensss..haaa..yehh..*huggss*
then yehh..thts hw my day strted..and ended..i love yesterday..lovei it..love it..
*[F]or you [I]'ll [M]ake [A] song*
heyy..cn i have an encore of yesterday..pleeaasshh..promish me one day orty...and im so gonna die cos i heard tht alot of peeps wanna see me..ish...haaa...
oh yeahh..thoes reading my blogg..pleashh tagg me aitee..lyk charm..if ure reading..tagg me..!!!at least i kno u know bout my lyf.haha..and yer khai..i dun tnik i cn give u anyting..coz realiii i dunnoo uu...*sowwisshh**

till den
wif loads of hearts, hearts and love..
fima darlinGg
ps: spideyyyy...<<33s loadsss

2006-05-19T12:50:00.000+08:00

e g o j e a l o u s a l l t h t m a k e s m e i w a n t t h e t r u t h i w a n t t h e f a c t s y e a h i m j e a l o u s o f t e m t u o o e u u j u s h a v e t o k n o i m s o r r y t o o b u t t o n i t e e e l e m e e j u s t r e s t i w a n t e u u a w h l l o a t a n d i m s l f y s h g o o d n i t e

till den
wif brkn-<3
fima darlinGg

2006-05-18T14:18:00.000+08:00

ishh...
everyting now is perfect!into place..no more drama no more shittyy stuff..i guess im good now..clean..onii some minor adjustments need to be done here and there..
yeahh..guess now my happy ending seems to be nearer...well unless of coz ive been dreaming.haa...now im oni wondering wen will tings get even more clearer??haa..i dun tink tht it wld be tht soon...yeahh!!!..im still the ego me..yeahh~~haaa...so now well im happy..and i just dunno wad to blogg anymore..haaa...
still wating for the ryt tym to bloogg everyting..

till den..
wif loadd ooofff heearrttsss
fima darlinGg
*love my lyf*

2006-05-17T11:58:00.000+08:00

ish..alot happend ..alot alot...im not in the mood to blogg today coz i just had a bad day..goshhh..its just sick wen the BEST thing tht cn ever happen to u happen at the tym when everting eles in ur lyf is in a mess..weird huh hw lyf works..but yeahh..basicaliii tis is happening to me..im loving my lyf yet im hating it..*sobsobs*..goshhh...
i'm still waiting for my happyy ending to ptch up piece by piece..yeahh..i will blogg agn if i hv the mood to wryt wad happened..i'll blogg agn wen lyf isnt tearing me into 2..i will blogg agn wen everting is in place..i will blogg agn soon..promisshh!!

till den
wif hearts for all
fima darlinGg

2006-05-14T06:25:00.000+08:00

im backkk..
so i "checked in" the chalet at ard 10 plus plus plus on thursday and slept there ..so..tht nite was draggyy for me.i was in no mood at all to talk.my sis wasnt there..my cuzzy had their boyfrns so im left wif abg boyy..haha..so i did sleep late tht nite but othr thn talking carp wif the peeps , i spent most of the tym day dreaming.. tinking of wad happed earlier tht day in sch and urrmm sum otha stuff..*shhhh*..
friday?..vesak day?..thts wen the parteeeiiiiiyyyy started...haha..so we are lyk the P.O.D crew..Party Organizor Decorator..i tink.haaa..earliiee moring we had to strt the deco and all..set up the registration booth..dress up to our totallii simmilar shirt, sunflower headband and earings..for the gurls onlii..haha..so the theme for tht day was yellow for the females and green for the males...and when u look at us..we look lyk peeps who totallii support brazil..hhaha..well i support england thn brazil.haha..so the partee for me was alryt..we did hv sum wrngs here and there but everyting managed well i guess..was not realli surpirzed at my cuzzy who participated coz we are all spporting peepss..haha..inclding all my uncles and auntiiee , grandmom and mommyy and daddyyy...had a couple of games for the kids and urrmm yaeh..we alsi held a fashion shw..tht was the bomb of all games in my point of view..haha...yeahh~~day rated:****(4 stars)
SATURDAY!!!espalnade day..actual plan: meet fadz onii at 9.15 at tempinese and leave and meet drama peeps at 9.45..wad happened..fadz got caught up in sumting..so he came late..way late..OMG!!i was practicallyy so scared he wldnt shw up..i was shivering wen i was msging my fren..gosh dun ask y..coz i just was..haha..he showed up in a cab at ard 10 so yarr..we went up and suddenlii anthr change of plans..we were meeting up wif his fren..louise..*i hope i gt his name spelled ryt*..actualii i was nervous meeting his fren..but it turned out ok..haa..louise is a nice guy..and urmm so we went to esplanade and yaeh tour ard...and eat and raz and fadz did a lil performance for us. and yeh,i absoulte love tht tym.haha..and nw im listing to "u & me" by lyfhse...and im loving it
spydrman..he gave me a pleasent surpise on saturday..reallii..i din xpect tht frm him..gosh..basicallii i feel foolish..and yeah i love tis feeling..the wait for tht one is realli worth every sec ..i just hope all is real..i reallii do lyk my mr spydrman...i bet he does too..haha..*blushblush*foolish..wad do i say nw??haa...well as tym goes on all will kno wad in store and wad i have to say..tnks spydy~~day rated*****(5 stars)
now its tym to do hw..yeahh...

so till den
wif loadsssss of my heartsss
fima darlinGg~

2006-05-12T11:19:00.000+08:00

sooo..today..wad happened today changed my lyf forever..strts wif the bad tings..ermmm..fight wif classmate..tears were shedd amg my gurls.babe..i realllii feel depreesed.now the 3 of us are dymm ok and yarr..even close now trust me..we even have a ring to provee it..haa..actualii 3 rings to prove it..muhahaha..so the rest of the gurl..yeah we will talk sum othr day..yeah.i wan tis stupidness to end soon and yer..practicallii smile agn...
soo..the good stuff is tht all of us patch tings up agn.the best part of all is tht im finalli haappy knowing wad i want nw..yeah..dun steal it frm me.plz..
dun kno wad to bloogg anymore..and yer..im going to syra chalet tonite..so wnt be bck till lyk sundaay??haaa..im the m.c...gosh..haa..wish me luck..and i practicalii cant wait for saturday..haha..drama..drama.seeing thoes stupid faces agn.seeing the peeps agn..and yar..im sure i'd enjoy myslf.if not i have my dt president to blame..haha..fadzleyy..haha...
soo ctch up soonn..enjoyss...

so till denn
wif love and hearts
fima darlinGg..
ps:to mr spidermann my lyf is aso getting more interesting..*haha*wheee~

2006-05-11T14:12:00.000+08:00

haha..
so have u been in a situation where...
people keep telling u tht u look lyk a "carbon copy" of sumone..
lyk they say tht "OMG u reallii are lyk tis gurl i kno"
when u're talking they stp u and keep saying tht "u sound lyk her too"
lyk everyting between u and tht so-called "twin" are the same..
even ur nick name..
have u?..i kno i have..
so she's my gurl's, hid, couzyy..and yarr..we finallii meet up aftr soo many peeps who kept telling me tht i shld so totallii meet her...so i did...and NO we dont look anyting alike..yeah we have same name.CraZEEness.loudness...so yeahh...thts her..fifi no. 1..haa..gosh..we were lyk practicallii talking to each other as if we hv known each other for years and years and years.haha..love tht gurl..
so today..yeah..i realli dunno hw to describe hw i feel ryt nw.lyk i just lost wrds for it.lyf realli is unpredictable.currentlii, im in no position to say hw tings are going for me and wads been happening.lyfs giving me too many surprise lately tht i cnt understnd it.so lets just WAIT a 'lil longer agn.yeah~
so now wad i look fowrd for is my 6 peeps in class and wen drama is ard the corner.im loving drama..my gurls there and my pimp there too..and yeahh...love tis 2 tings in poly..and thts tht.
sumones making my heart smile agn!!..im loving it..but i hope it's not just a dream for me now..hahaha..

nw..wif love
till den
wif loads of hearts
fima darlinGg